I've been doing well no P&M for at least 4 months now. I totally believe my mindset and perspective has changed as far as what is it isn't healthy. I used to think it was bad because it upset my wife therefore I would abstain. That lasted a while and would go right back. When I finally decided to reboot I was on board. I now believe it is a society issue. And we are just starting to see the backlash of porn and masturbation use. Like I said I've been good about P&M and working very hard on the ogling. But now I feel the wife is hyper vigilant and every time we go out into public she is triggered. She also expressed that she feels I love her like a sibling not in love with her. She says we are just companions. I love her and don't want to loose her but the more we dive deeper into my issues. The more she seems to not be able to move forward. I fear I am loosing her. Don't know what to say or do. I feel awkward and anxious when in public trying not to do anything to trigger and even when I am good she still gets triggered and worked up. I love my wife. Yet suck at showing it. She says talk is cheap. I agree but I feel like I am doing everything I can to be a good husband. I feel the betrayal off hiding P&M from her is too much and she will eventually come to the conclusion she can't put her self through it anymore. Those feelings she is experiencing won't go away just because our relationship is no more. I don't know what to do anymore.