Hi guys, today is the 26th day of my reboot but i was surfing some hot pictures and accidentally opened gif of girl masturbation, although i didn't feel I'm too horny while watching these girls but once i watched it i masturbated directly and i took shower than i opened pornhub to watch certain film there to masturbate to and i did. My question is Let's assume that i could abstain from porn for about 90 or even more ,will i be in control of myself or i will relapse once watching any erotic staff either accidentally or while watching series ?
In my experience here (varying wildly from months and months of no porn to relapses every 5-9 days or less) Developing self awareness and control over desires varies in mileage depending on how well you keep the vehicle(body and mind). You made a choice recently to relapse on Porn. You did and it’s ok if your not ready to reset that counter but let me tell you how the next few days are going to go. You are going to slowly start slipping, a little peak here, a little peak there. Some slight edging just for a bit, then stop. Then an hour later another urge hits so you search some more. Until finally you just watch videos> but just watch> then watch and edge> then finally you full on PMO (this can take days sometimes). So your question is will you relapse after 90days even if you see some erotic content? But that doesn’t matter right now.. right now you need to fight like hell to not relapse for the next 72hrs. Bottom line. You jarred open the door of your mind and it’s going to do everything it can to get you to let the porn guest back in. So forget 90 days, survive the next 3 days. Right now your worried if you’ll fall when you start running but your still figuring out how to crawl. Make sense? Just go one step at a time, it will help a lot.
Actually that's what exactly I'm thinking about i want to watch some hot pictures only watch to be in control of myself later because I'm having the idea of i won't be able to control myself because i wasn't much horny but once i watched this gif i masturbated directly, so I'm saying i have to be able to control myself or never I'll be.
Man what I believe is that you will never be in full control of your sexual thoughts as sex is the most powerful motive of human beings because of the process of reproduction. All that is going to happen is that you are going to become disciplined in that aspect but don't forget that there are pathways in your brain that can lead you to the same path if you feed it or if you play with triggers. Try to abstain from all sorts of triggers because we humans are weak and this urge becomes strong if you don't deal with it properly.
Bro, my problem is i wasn't so horny but once i watched the gif i relapsed without even thinking about it may be because i wanted to relapse yesterday and i read some articles about masturbation before watching these pictures. Or to be more accurate i followed the relapse routine ,so when i watched the gif i couldn't resist because i had enough of the other hot pictures this is the only logical way to think about. Because my mind is telling me if you watched any girl you will relapse without even think about it.
I believe that if you put the work in, you will eventually be able to control yourself. Even if you accidentally view P at some point.
Man but I believe that if you love chocolate cake and you put it in front of you and try to resist. How long will you be able to resist?? Ultimately you will eat it. Try to stay away from triggers man until you build the strength to deal with normal level temptations atleast. Still don't put yourself in a situation where you are vulnerable. We all need to fulfill our sexual desires but in the right way. A petrol engine can not be run by diesel. It will spoil the engine so porn is not something natural. It is artificial and hence should be resisted.
