Hello guys, A few days ago I hit a new low: I had a horrifying acid trip that lasted 30 hrs, ended up relapsing and I broke down crying and told my father about my addictions. I got back in the saddle and avoided going on a binge so I'm happy about that. I've been thinking a lot about what my life needs to look like if I'm gonna recover. I don't play video games anymore, I don't masturbate, watch porn, sext or spend lots of time on social media. I'm never doing drugs again, I don't even drink coffee anymore. The only online friends I do have are on whatsapp and it's strictly platonic. I do however watch quite a few youtube videos, it helps me stay positive because I tend to get stuck in my own thoughts a lot. Sometimes I watch let's plays of video games and I wonder if this is bad for my dopamine system. What do you guys do to stay hopeful? It's difficult to see the light sometimes as i've been struggling with porn addiction and pied for about 3 years now. Sometimes it feels like I'll never get better and it eats me from inside.