Hello fellow Fapstronauts, I've collapsed big time, after being cca 180 days without sex and P, M, O. I was very much afraid of that. I developed chronical physical pain in right groin area, which was getting worse, so I've decided to release tension with mb-ing to orgasm. I was hooked to vicious compulsive mb circle, just a few days after release. I mean, things really got out of control this time around, not sleeping for days, hours long compulsive PMO for a week or even more... I stopped counting. Being glued to computer screens most of the time to complete physical and mental exhaustion. How crazy is this? Bloody hell, I knew this would happen as soon as I started mb again as it has happen to me twice before after I completed 90 days hard mode streaks. I'm going back on track with hard mode now, but this time around I'll also limit my computer and phone use to only 13 webpages I need for work and that's it. No mindless news web browsing, social media, YouTube, games, movies etc anymore. I've realized I'm as much addicted to news media as I am to PMO. I will use my spare time for books reading and enlist in 3 months triathlon training program. That should keep me out of trouble.
Sounds like a good plan my friend! Get back to the things that make you feel good. Can I ask how do you limit your computer/phone to just these 13 webpages? Looking for tips
Thanks for support. I've just 'tabed' those pages in web browser as top sites. hopefully I'll go nowhere else. If that doesn't work, I'll use K9 to block everything except those 13 pages. I've stopped using smart phone and replace it with regular.
In your previous posts you wrote that you had plans go to 'massage salon' instead masturbating. I'm not encouraging going to such places, but maybe this was a mistake you made?
It did. It was completely gone after second orgasm. I don't think total celibacy is healthy in the long term.
I didn't go, I just had a release without p. Maybe that was a mistake. I was afraid I couldn't control my mb, but thought maybe this time will be different, well it was not. After so many years of compulsive mb, healthy release routine is obviously out of my reach.
Did you have any wet dreams during that period (I assume sex was a no go per se)? I had none, maybe that was the problem.
Maybe My body is different, or maybe it’s srull too early still, but I’ve had no groin pain. We’re you edging at all? Maybe early in your sobriety? I literally only touch myself when I go to the bathroom, soap myself in the shower, and adjust myself when uncomfortable, so very little touching. I’ve done zero edging. Curious about this cuz I would hate this to happen to me.
Zero edging or P viewing for 6 months. Problems started around 170 days. I had terrible physical side effects (constant headaches, feeling sick etc., constant fatigue, insomnia) from 2 weeks into rehab till reaching 3-4 months mark. But this pain was different. It was very strong and persisting to the point I was afraid to have an orgasm. I didn't know if it would make things worse. Thankfully it helped. In one of my previous 90 days streaks, I experienced pain after reaching 100 days and first orgasm was also very painful. I don't know what was causing this pain.
Thanks for sharing. If you end up going to a doctor to discuss, it would be great to have an update. This scares me for my recovery because I can’t relapse or I will lose everything.
Just make sure whatever you do DONT binge. You’ll be fine man just ride through withdrawal it will be tough but if you can conquer it you can conquer anything else.
Why would you have this pain and what was causing it? Why would masturbation make a groin pain better? Strange.
I am wondering too. Some say that you don't need release on your own because the wet dreams provide that. But no release No wet dreams for 6 months? Maybe that's an issue. Just thinking out loud here.
I don't know what it was, all I know it was painful as hell. I consulted with my personal doctor, but didn't get any diagnosis from her. She wanted to make an appointment with urologist. Waiting time is 3 or more months for non-life-threatening symptoms in our shitty healthcare system. I didn't want to wait that long, so I had a release to see if abstinence was the cause of pain and it turns out it was.