Day 30: Was a busy weekend so I did not get a chance to check in but it has been mostly good the past couple of days. My mind is still a far ways away from viewing woman the correct way which I noticed yesterday but I also have noticed small positive changes in response to stress and frustration and not immediately thinking about PMO. Onwards and upwards and restored.
02/90 well i'm almost finishing second day... i have to say that this day was pretty different from others in my daily life. I usually get up, do my stuff... and then i take a break and... masturbate. today i was very busy playing guitar, i practiced like 6 hours today, so i didn't have time to masturbate. i noticed a few things: i was looking into a fit girl instagram to get excited, didn't get an erection or touched, just looked at it for a few minutes and then decided to get up and keep my day. and the other thing is that i was on the street and felt very attracted to some girls, i was not being obvious but i looked them and i saw their ass. again i felt a little bit excited but i passed the moment and that was all. i think today i felt the need of masturbation because i'm very used to get my anxiety down when i masturbate, then i feel worse but everytime i feel bad or nervous i masturbate. this day was pretty hard on overthinking negative ideas about my past mistakes in relationships with girls, or other mistakes, also thinking about what i'll do with my life in some years, etc. i just tried to forget those boomerang thoughts when i was playing guitar and it worked i think. i have to say that my abstinence syndrome shows itself as a depressive, fateful mood with overthinking ideas. i'm positive about this and i think it's gonna pass and get better with some time. i'll also be losing my social phobia. thanks, i'm motivated and i'm starting again this journey.
No sport news (was addicted to watching it for hours in the past): day 76/90 One day at a time. One step closer to having more peace inside.
Day 22. I was peeking for a second yesterday, my brain was trying to tell me it was okay, because it wasn’t actual porn, and it was just a second... I managed to stop myself quickly and I’m not gonna consider it a relapse. But I can’t - and won’t - do it again. Onwards and upwards.
Hi guys, Been busy last few days. All good this side. Started sleeping early and getting up early. helping a lot. changed few other things too. committed to one hour meditation first thing in morning. going good with it. second, paid one full year for gym. des 2 things first in morning keep me busy. get really tired after it. dont have much thoughts about P everyday. Keeping busy really helps. Having a schedule really helps.
Current Challenge 8/90 (ends Feb 16) 276/305 Good Days (no relapse) Day 97 weight training (M, W, F) Day 34 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar Joined nofap Jan 25, 2019 Longest streaks 67 then 51 (4 years later) - feeling some weak urges but nothing I can't handle - past a week now so looking good with one down and 11 more to go - have a great fapfree day everyone
