I'm so tired, but I feel nice. I don't wanna fap, but honestly I feel a little urge, but I will reflex on it. Day 6
Day 17 really struggling with sleep due to urges but determined to do this, I refuse to go back to day 0,keep going everybody
daily check day 75 @Kratos_GOW last promotion for me I am a spartan general now All is good I am just passing by a period of low libido but I know it will pass, I already passed through them. and anyway I am doing hard mode so my mind will try to trick me less
Congrats man. Its so good seeing fellow member doing in big time. What changes you saw in this time period ?
thanks man I just give my 300% in everything I do Well I noticed a real big change, and it is in the mindset, I was a boy and now I feel like a man. I mean as I already said before last time I tried I did 127 days and all the physical benefits were there(brighter eyes, stronger hair, focus..) but there was something missing, something inside me something inside my mind, I was still a boy who was constantly looking at the streak as if the amount of days could say something about the person. I was stupid. So I reflected, and I swear to God, I never meditate so much in my life as in the dark period between these two streaks, and I recognized that I needed to finally be a man, to take responsabilities, to do something about my life, and now I feel the sense of self-discipline I always wanted in my life, that's what is changed. I learnt the real meaning of this journey for all of us. it's not just a "game" or a "challenge", it's not about having a bigger streak than others, it's about live your life to the fullest, you could abstain from PMO till the rest of your life and still be more a failure than a person that relapse every 10 days if you just let the days pass by just watching them. I learnt to live, I learnt to enjoy the beauty of sacrifice, the beauty of destroying yourself in a gym because you know that in some time this sacrifice will lead me to have finally the body I always wanted. I learnt the beauty of volunteer because it is not necessary to be on the newspaper to feel like a hero. And about this I will close this long and maybe boring message with the quote that changed my life and that explain what I tried to communicate(maybe I was unclear, in that case hope you forgive me): " Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others" so that's it I am here, without fear to say that I am able to reach my goal and I will and I hope that seeing me do this will encourage you