These instances of attraction have been been far and few in between for me, too, which I'm 100% OK with. And, like you, I'm far more focused on living life positively, which to me means trusting and supporting people, and people trusting and supporting me. I will admit that I still entertain thoughts from past remembrances of my sexual flings, but these days I rarely, if ever, think about being attractive to or attracting women. The need or compulsion just doesn't exist. I do want to be married, and I also want to be a father and the protector of my family, but I'm not settling this time, and I'm in no rush to "find" that special woman. Attracting women used to be a top priority for me. Along with PMO, marijuana, and alcohol. Women were an escape. A drug. The more women I could attract, I thought, the more valuable I was. I spent a lot of time chasing them, and I spent a lot of time fantasizing about them, but the rush that I felt from "gaming" those women doesn't come close to the level of living a positive life and feeling truly connected to others.
Checking in day 11. *TRIGGER WARNING* Super difficult morning. I woke up in the middle of the night super horny. Can’t wake up my wife for sex and I just have this nagging demon saying “if you just jo without porn, you’ll be ok. It’s natural, let it out....” and I’m stopping mid work out, trying to push out that urge through the iron but it’s hard. Like I feel good about myself and need release. I know that sounds weird, but I’m struggling. I keep wanting to go on this girl that messed around with reddit account to read through her sexual posts and pics.... Staying strong, Spartans. Rough morning. Sorry if that was TMI
I appreciate and respect your candor and resilience! As you know: when we push through weakness, we gain strength. Getting that extra rep in builds strength and confidence. I truly believe that at times we must feel pain, weakness, and discomfort in order to reach that next level. This is when we grow. This is when our muscles get stronger. These are the "money reps." I think you just got stronger. Have a great day my friend and thank you for sharing!
Thats why i want to do cold showers, there is a lot of hype around that. But its fckin 5°C out here, so its really difficult. But recent advice i got is to have lukewarm water. Gonna try that.
@ShockTheSystem . That voice is what i call "Ashura" or " Demon" in english. The dark side within you that is hell bend on taking you down and make you stay there. It's the fight about conquering yourself, tell the demon this is my mind and my body, i am gonna Superkick you so get outta my way.
Day (10)4 checking in. As I repeat everyday Also today woke up really early and went for a walk in the mountain, there was so many people that I understood that, staying humble, I am on a different level now physically than other average people. I am not average anymore. So it's time to level up again. Anyway this afternoon I am going to study a bit to keep the pace. It doesn't, You're fighting and we respect you for this. Mind can try to trick many ways to make us do what he wants. But if you have a goal you'll make it. Yeah it's because you're on hard mode, your body is not used not to use all that semen so I think it is like a full tank signal. It's like you rebooted yourself from now, it's you against your will.
@Espi1971 @Kratos_GOW @fg4795 wow. Thank you guys tremendously for that support. I seriously felt so great to ready those encouraging words and know that I am not alone. I crushed the rest of my workout and feel amazing at the moment, like the world has such great people like the three of you and I can get through it all, I just have to stay the course. Thanks brothers.
Yeah it's like you have too much and some way it wants to go out, around 80/90 if you did a great semen retention like I did you'll suffer a bit
Your very welcome. Glad to hear it works for others too. Day 5 is almost over (day 13 on personal streak) I’m still on the dry fast, 3 more hours will be a full 48 dry. It was harder in the mornings, especially since my wife and son are sick and I’m taking care of them. But I’m feeling awesome now!
