hello, I'm 18, 2 years ago i started having hocd but never before did i think about men, before my hocd i was fapping for like 4 to 5 times a day, with hocd it went even higher because i needed constant reassurance. Last july a weirdo on discord sented me a trap hentai, i think i got turned on but it was a weird feeling, i did not masturbate though. 1st of september i was returning from my village and i was checking some straight hentai artworks, suddenly my dick started burning and i think it came on its own several times, that started when i was loking at a pic and thought, What if she had a dick? Since then i am having constant problems with traps and futas, the urge to fap to them come and goes, when im normal and im thinking about just normal girls, i am freaking out about what crosses my mind when i think that i like traps and futas. I wholeheartedly mean it when i say i dont want to like traps and futas, i dont and i cant stand it when the urge to fap to them comes, they give me a huge boner and cumming feels good but i dont want them in my life, its like i am a completely different person. Btw before the hocd and the trap futa thing, when i was seeing stuff like that back then i was disgusted and when i am thinking normally, i still am. So do you think this is a porn induced fetish and with NoFap it will go away? I dont want it in my life, not because i'd be embarassed of it but i wouldn't feel good with myself. Is this a porn induced fetish and i can get rid of it? Or... Am i a lost cause? Does nofap work to begin with? Thanks in advance P.S.:be honest with me and dont tell me just what i want to hear, no matter how sad and brutal it will be...
Hi I didn't have any idea what f*ta was until I read your post and searched that on google. I will not judge you because I was also in weird stuff before my rebooting. And with all I learned in the last year I can tell you can recover. But you need to acknowledge that this f*tish is awful and it probably will ruin your life, instead of thinking it is only a small problem, or an unaverage habit, or something like that. It is what it is, a big problem. Just imagine how you will continue your life, if you want to be in a normal relationship in the future, or if someone uses that thing against you. I'm sure NoFAP will help you, it means no masturbation (including edging), no p*rn (including searching for it, watching a few seconds). But people like us with weird f*tishes, need to remove a lot of things from your life in addition to PMO: Apart from P*rn avoid any material which can arouse you. No matter if they are audio, texts, pictures, videos. For example social media photos, youtube videos, which trigger you. And in your situation, you need to avoid those "cartoons" which makes you remember your f*tish. If you have objects with motives related to your f*tish, "souvenirs", posters, then throw them away. Block all the people who can send you this kind of material. I know all of that may sound hard. But people with f*tishes, like you and me, need to work harder in order to overcome the addiction. Just think about the life you want, and there is no place for those things in that life. Don't give up. We are still in the struggle.
Oh dont get me wrong, i acknowledge it as something awful and trust me it arouses me... A lot but it makes me feel like a trainwreck. 2 days ago i f*pped to it twice and then i cried because i couldnt stand what i did and what i was thinking. My only problem is, will it actually go away? That is something that frightens me a lot, many people say that nofap does nothing and that you cannot get rid of your fetishes. Thats why i dont know what to believe and im unsure of everything, did you get rid (or at least close to it) of your fetish? Thanks!
Don't feel bad bro, most of us failed repeatedly before success. I will be honest with you. In my current streak, the f*tish didn't disappear at all, but it decayed a lot. Now I much more interested in a normal relationship, rather than that weird f*tish. But it comes back from time to time, like ghosts, and makes me want to give up. That only happens rarely. I certainly improved, and I think someday I will be free from that f*tish. But even if it never goes away, it doesn't affect my life anyway because now is much smaller than in the past Every person is different, what doesn't works for someone maybe work for you and vice versa. I had started to develop my f*tish years before I started f*pping. And all of those years I didn't fight against the f*tish so it grew inside me. And with p*rn it became bigger. But your f*tish is p*rn induced, and you only had it for a couple of years. I do believe you can get rid of your f*tish because it is not deep inside your brain. Why don't try? at least for one month. If it not work, you will know it doesn't help you. It's is better than doing nothing about your problem. And you will certainly improve in many aspects of your life for real, you will have more energy and more confidence.
You're welcome. If you have doubts or a hard time, then make a post, here there is a great supportive community which can help you.
