11/90 my post yday of the buzzcocks' song orgasm addict really made me think, that's what I am. It isn't just P. Being free from that feeling of needing to O all the time is really liberating. I'm only 11 days in but, It's getting easier. The first week was hard, but already my mind is shutting down erotic thoughts quickly. It even happened automatically today. My brain seems to be slowly learning not to turn to PMO when bored, sad or any other reason.
56 days completed guys its easy to handle the urges i am like in autopilot mode now whenever things i saw which triggers me mind is alerted instantly and i just close all the things and see my counter slowly my mind is getting in control and mental fog is going slowly slowly gaining control of my life
Day 4/90 Total clean days - 21 Total PMO - 20 Total P - 2 Total hours remaining - 2063 1st Goal - 7 days Days remaining - 3 Goal completed - 0 So i always relapse on day 4 and today is day 4. I will be careful that I don't end up watching porn. I watch porn and I relapse. I do know now that I can't resist the urge after watching porn so I know that watching Porn means relapse so for 90 days no PMO. Today I feel the urges again my brain is craving for porn but I won't do it as I had done this more than 1000 times so I don't want to go through it again.
Missed yesterday so both posts given today with no urges or triggers to report. Day 6/90 Day 531 at attempting this challenge Day 183 weigh training (M, W, F) Day 2 Jogging (Tues &Thurs) Day 54 No caffeine and no alcohol Lifestyle: reduced desserts Day 7/90 Day 532 at attempting this challenge Day 183 weigh training (M, W, F) Day 2 Jogging (Tues &Thurs) Day 54 No caffeine and no alcohol Lifestyle: reduced desserts
Just check in as i don't remember how many days it's been. I've changed quite a lot. Having therapist... tmr is my 3rd session. Trying to stay focused on good things such as study, work out, fasting, work, reading, meaningful frendships. Already had 4 bad days.. few days ago as my brain was freaking out due to need of dopamine. Tough 4 deppresion days mixed with mood swings. Went through it braverly. Wish you strenght and courage lads. Cheers!!
Dopamine. You've hit the nail on the head. Maybe we're so used to hitting dopamine that we can't get off the train.
Day 7/90. My first clean week in years. I feel really proud and i couldn't have done it without you. Only 12 more weeks to go!
