These measures aren't there to prevent you from relapsing. they are there to give you time to react/work consciously, preventing relapsing on autopilot
SafeSearch is a filter integrated in Google... not a blocker. You should always have activated because it can save you from those stupid peaks from google images. If you have urges you aren´t going against SafeSearch because it doesn´t prevent you from accessing P sites; you are going to bypass your P blockers maybe, but no need to disable safesearch
Day 9. - In the last few days i´ve experienced a lack of arousal. Meanwhile it may be good for the challenge, the counterpart is that i find it hard to be aroused when i´m with my gf too. I don´t know if it´s a result of the mindset I have now, and all that discipline and self awareness, but i´m a bit worried too. Maybe im also worried about being less attracted to my gf. The thing is that last night my brain was pushing me to watch P in order to "test my desire". Of course i said No. But some part of me misses being attracted to other girls, and watching some pictures, so sometimes i find myself saying that when i´m over with this, proving myself that i´m not addicted, i will be able to watch those pics again. It´s weird, idk. But it´s what´s been in my mind lately
Day 43: Today I'm on day 43, I'm having a bad week. I'm too hot wanting to relapse, this morning I had to go outside and run 15 kilometers for 2 hours with flatus and windy weather. It has served me temporarily, in the afternoon I had the hotness again. I got into the bidet with cold water to see if it relaxes the testicles. It did me good for the most part, being hot is not good at all. I had a time when my testicles hurt a lot and it radiated towards my kidneys. A bad day and a bad week, but here I am moving forward with the pain and hotness. It came just like that after a long period of flatlining. I think I am willpower tested. Cheer up!
Yesterday: Day 4 noP - Contender ✅ Meeting my Goals day 4✅ 3 times autogenic training 1/3 day 0➖ Willpower exerciese ➖ Internet addiction defeated day day 0 ➖