This is kinda the thing about the new rule I'm not really feeling. Because now if you relapse at 5+ days you'd lose even though i can barely make it a day. I just find that a bit weird.
Like @Toni7 said, both of us have to reach 5+ days. That way it feels more like a ‘fight’. I almost fell twice today. But I stopped which I’m proud of. I have to continue staying focused. IM NOT GOING TO BACK DOWN ONE INCH.
I honestly was doing so good with moderation eating & one meal a day intermit-fasting. Then yesterday was my cheat day with breakfast & dinner. I had a long day arguing with partners then I over ate at night & had a super sugary drink. Immeditaly felt like shit.. Came home wanted a smoke couldnt find one. Stayed up talked to a chick and then PMed to the shittiest P. I ordered food but i felt like i needed to finish it. Who created this rule? Means nothing. I paid for it, i can do whatever i want with it. Should have practiced mindful eating, eating slow.. The not had a sugary drink. Excess sugary & these human treats dont work with me. Maybe the days i overeat “accidently” i should go for a run or walk after? Mmm. Shake it off..
Oh okay i must've misread, that makes more sense I guess. Today was a bad day pmo wise, did it about 3 times today. But i started a coaching program at least and so far I'm loving. Hopefully that drives my life in the right direction and i don't feel the need to pleasure myself to escape things.
That’s good. Part of the struggle against PMO is bettering your life as a whole. I’m on square one again. I was feeling so good too. I’m not going to stay down though.
Struggling like crazy, sleeping all day and every time I wake up i pmo. I fucking hate this. And the thing is the porn is just the same shit over and over, I'm not even seeking novelty at this point as usual I'm just satisfied with basic shit. That's how I know it's getting bad. Not even sure if its the porn I want or just the O to forget about everything even just for a few seconds.
Try to make a morning routine. Get up and make your bed. Set a fixed time to wake up in the morning and force yourself to get up. Your sleep schedule will fix itself if you can do that. Start with this.