Im looking for an accountability partner. Im barely starting today so Day 0 for me and I have to break away from this cycle already.
I think exercise helps with all this also....You could go running or do yoga....and if you are not ready for those yet....how about you just take a walk around your block...?
I did ok today, actually caring for my life...not enough work done for my life....but real care about integrity....I have a bunch of work I am going to have to redo for one client or revise, this is stressing me a little, however I also do have some good insights for the changes and I am deeply trusting I will find my way through... Thanks all, you are in my prayers...!!!
Day 23. It was good today in morning I wasted some time but afterwards I was able to regain my control and studied as I planned. I was able to follow my most of the schedule and also controlled my time on gaming and YouTube.
Ok Still alive....I want to just sort of be an adult today....being responsible for myself in a good way....etc...
Today is Day One. Plan is 30 days no PM, then will reassess goals on masturbation while continuing to abstain from porn.
Day 6. Had terrible urges from porn induced fetish but I defeated it. Can't wait for my reboot to be complete to be healed from this fetish crap.
Day 17: Today was the hardest day so far. I had the trigger of needy, so I was having sexual/sexy fantasies (which for me is almost the same as watching porn), so I took a cold shower, got out for a walk, did push-ups and it didn't work. But then I got out of home again and ran a little bit, and after I talked with one friend of mine, that's how I overcame the trigger. PS: and the blocker that I was using on my phone stopped working. I'll hit the mark of 30 days, without losing my current strike!
Thanks for trying the running....calling friends definitely helps with triggers... Andy Luck on a different blocker for your phone?
Ok and I just want to express my gratitude to everyone here because I have had about 15 good days in the the past 21 days....and this is so much better than waking up every morning feeling like absolute shit from PMO for 6-8hrs the night before... I am starting to have a real life...It is not necessarily my best life...I am still eating too much everyday....but it is a life where I am actually alive....Instead a life where I am actually Dead. Thank everyone here, my friends, and my Higher Power all.....
I relapsed big time yesterday. Got lots of anxiety and fapping is definitely not helping, only dulling the pain through escapism. Its like healing your burnt hand by sawing it off, it might distract the previous pain, but it does not help anything. I will try upgrading to hard mode and go for a 90 day streak, and see if it works out. May gods grace be with you all
Day 8 - Keeping bust. Temptation everywhere, the heatwave has a lot of visual triggers as women are wearing less clothes. But focusing on my breath and discipline. It's difficult, very difficult, but I have made it to Day 8.
Day 16. Surprised on how much i'm resisting the urges. I think participating in a community really helps
