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Sleep
I’ve been waking up before 4 am almost 10 days straight, my sleep is one of the best I had in years. It has helped me that I created this 4am challenge of waking up before 4am, by doing this my mind just falls sleep because it knows it has to wake up always at the same time.
This is important to me, because a good sleep means less stress, more energy. When my body is under more stress I feel more the need to ejaculate. So a good sleep is essential.

 

Day 32

 

Day 86

 

Day 10
feeling sick today just gonna lay day and relaxed

 

Day 19 - Elite Warrior.

 

Checking in!

 

499 days no PMO, semen retention

 

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Day 56

 

Checking in Saiyans!

Day 232 free of MO. Day 304 free of porn.

I have reflected a lot over the past week and I've had a breakthrough, of sorts . I've been looking at my own recovery in the wrong way. What I mean by that is, I was so obsessed with PMO withdrawal, (PAWs=post acute withdrawal) being the sole cause of my occasional recurring symptoms. Whether that be, anxiety, depression, anger, disturbed sleep, fatigue..the list goes on. This is far from the truth. Delving back, I realize that around 3 and a half years ago, for one reason or another(I won't go in detail in this post), I lead myself to a burnout. From that moment on, each time I would start feeling better, I would sabotage with a negative way of thinking, excess worry which would lead to more stress on the body and severe avoidance. The avoidance at first was affiliated with occasional PMO and daily youtube consumption. Over the years, down to last year between July and November, my addiction to PMO and youtube was at its worst. I destroyed my sleep cycle, which lead me to no be capable of exercising, my confidence shattering more and more as the days went by and I was avoiding any feeling of discomfort. Running endlessly until the symptoms were so severe, I had no choice but to stop. A slow learner indeed..Now since then, I realize my mindset is still not corrected. I still water the seeds of excess worry in my mind. When things go wrong, I spiral into a vicious cycle of over thinking. This, is my greatest challenge. This is what is slowing me down, in finally overcoming my burden. Replenishing my reserves from my burnout, all those years ago.

Last week, was a sharp wake up call. I have been going about it all wrong. I need to prioritize true rest , address and challenge my worrisome mindset, the overthinking and finally stop the perfectionist "idealism" in my day to day life. This part of my journey will be the most difficult, because this is what leads me down a path of addiction and avoidance.

Up until now, I believed my great adversary was external. All along, it's been my own mind.

I will probably leave this part of my journey, in a separate journal on this forum.


Stay strong Saiyans, enjoy the weekend my friends.

 

Day 44

Forgot to check in yesterday again. I was so busy.

My legs are sore after yesterday's leg workouts at my home-gym. I did a lot of squats and lunges with a weight vest on.

 

Day 87

 

Day 11
Exercised and I'm gonna train after I eat

 

Day 47

 

Day 33

 

Day 6 I will not watch porn again
Never.