Accountability for All

Checking in

 

Hello everyone i just found this site from reddit's nofap community, i am on day 32 feeling great and full of energy i had a couple of good streaks (best was 80 days) but i struggled a lot after september 2021. When the new year came i said i am done because it affects my football performance and now day by day i am getting to full reboot.
Hope everyone is doing well and wishing you all good luck.

 

Day 0 ( Relapsed / Binged ) : Well, the chaser effect is a real thing
I did exercised yesterday and i overexerted myself which almost make me faint
Other productive stuff i did was reading, but not a lot

For distractions / leisure, playing games doesn't work well anymore.
Usually, the one that make me go to a long streak is by having fun, while slowly being productive, but games is slowly losing it's effect
My overall mood everyday is stressed out by the upcoming College life, which may indirectly cause me to PMO and prevent doing something productive

 

Day 3

 

Day 10 in the list!! A good day yesterday I was sick but today I got well and I did my work. Usually when I am sick I relapsed but this time I was focused instead of relapsing I did my study as much as I can in that situation.

 

Day 34 of no PMO
A day well spent.
How are you guys doing?

 

In the past 103 days I have:

* PMO'd 6 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 17.2 days on strict PMO nofap
* 6 days straight nofap streak so far

 

21 days in the books!! Finished reading The Miserable Mill and The Austere Academy!!!

 

checkin'

 

In the past 104 days I have:

* PMO'd 6 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 17.3 days on strict PMO nofap
* 7 days straight nofap streak so far

 

Hello guys!
I was doing nofap for 2 years and it helped me a lot in all spheres of my life. Even though I didn't get rid of PMO-addiction yet. I had different streaks, but the longest was 56 days and I felt amazing at this point. I think, there is no need to tell which benefits there were, because you know it already.
So 2 days ago I found out about my biggest mistake: every time I was just going for big streaks and in my subconsious mind didn't believe that I can beat this addiction and live without it for the rest of my life. In another words, I was subconsiosly believing that I will relapse again.
So I decided to not PMO ever again and it's my 2nd day. Wish you all good luck in your journeys, let's beat this and become people who we are really supposed to be!
(If somebody know, could you give some advices how to control the urges? Maybe you have some systems or plans what to do in different level of urges which gives you confidence that you won't slip again. It definetly will help me and others a lot, thanks)

 

Checking !

 

Fucked up some more. ... so the only way I'm going to get through this if I really take responsibility for how f***** up I am..? this means I really have to review my yellow book even though I'm tired at night after work. The Yellowbook reminds me of my history and all the f*** ups and it breaks me out of my kind of complacency and just presumption of whatever. ... no more tired blank. .... be cause If i am tired blank with no intention or plan, .....then I lose...

 

Write,
and/or read "deep" and "valuable" books
(use your own meter to measure the "depth" and the "value"),
eat healthy food,
sleeping early and waking up early,
take baby steps everyday towards your goals/dream projects

these two are important:

abstain from wandering over the internet (FB, YT, Twitter, .. etc) aimlessly without a purpose or time limit .. this is a killer !!

avoid getting tired, sleepless, drunk, .. , anything that takes you to a state that you lose control over yourself

at least that helped me a lot

 

Day 46

#total_new_habits = 8
#days_of_new_habits = 17/40

I was not around for 4 days ?!! .. I did not feel them at all .. I was working at sth and I got consumed in it .. It was pretty emotional these past days .. I do not know what to say anymore .. I think (I am not sure) I am approaching my "anchor" that keeps me firm no matter what .. it won't leave me emotionless .. actually on the opposite .. I am more emotional than ever .. but it keeps me firm with my actions .. that is what I have control over .. I do not for anything else .. for emotions .. I do not .. for people actions .. no way .. environment and conditions .. absolutely no .. still I can control my response to all of that .. and if sth matters, it is my actions .. well , I am getting used to write less it seems .. )

"Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair"

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Got the flu.
Can't relapse if I'm in agony

 

Day 4

 

5 weeks of no PMO
Happy and grateful
Thank you everyone

 

Day 11 in the list!! It was a good day, I learned something about myself that when things get tough and troubling I got panick and my behavior is not good at that moment. So I need to work on it.

 

Checkin' - 1 relapse so far.