Day 481 no PMO. Coming down the home stretch of the challenge now and I’m happy to see day 500 just ahead! Tested positive for Covid yesterday but so far it basically feels like a cold.
Day 317! Getting closer to a year free of porn, I want to happily tell you brothers that I didn't have urges in months! Maybe I'll keep having "urges" in my life but don't think a really strong urge will ever come again. My mind knows too well how bad is that hole, my body doesn't even want to do it anymore, and my soul wants to stay as clean as possible and remain in God's grace. So guys, you have to be really strong the first months. Keeping determined. Once they pass you, and I mean the whole you, will start to work together, instead of being your own enemy. Then believe me, this gets much, I mean it, a lot easier! I'm thinking about consecrate myself to be a "focolar". Need to discern a lot, this would be a change for life. Intermittent fasting actually changed the way I can eat. Right now if I eat at night (breaking IF), I'll sleep badly, waking up several times in the morning. At the same time is easier to do it, it's about to become a habit, if it isn't already.
Day 6 It was my birthday a few days ago. Hung out with some friends last night to celebrate. It was pretty fun.
Wow just want to be the first to say thank you for sharing that. It's very inspirational to hear such success after so many months. What was your secret to getting over those urges, especially early on, in the reboot? Did you have any blockers of any kind?
Day 13! Low urges yestarday. Yestedary at nigth, I watched a movie with some sexual scenes (a Netflix one) and I wanted to stay at nigth(a trigger) but I overcome the temptation, so my counter is continue growing. Keep strong my brothers.
Checking in Fellowship!! Well, about my slip yesterday. Now i´m positivily sure that i was fishing, because today i picked another martial arts movie to watch that may had triggers (it didn´t, luckly!), and that made me reflect: "why i´m i repeating this behaviour?" and it became clear that i was watching the movie expecting "something" to happen. it was surprising because it was so subtle and subconcious that i didn´t catch that i was fishing well, i made a retroactive entry in my journal detailing what happened, and how could i avoid it. so from now on everytime i pick a dubious movie to watch, i´ll ask myself "why i´m i really picking this movie?" to clear out any possible fishing attempts. Feeling much better now, and more solid, not bulletproof but better . Thanks for reading me brothers. Have a nice day
Day 169 I’ve been feeling melancholy for most of the day; I would have liked to have spent more time with my family this weekend, but realising that has made me assess how I’m spending my free time so that I can be better rested to better enjoy the company of those around me. I went to the gym and finished an essay so I’m feeling a bit better now, I’ve had to give myself a bit of a kick up the arse to stop being so pedantic about things. That being said I’m pleased to have a day with no urges - praise God!
Day 4. Very busy, so no urges. Not oogling at women can be hard though, but i’m pretty good at controlling myself today.