I was so restless today Me- i dnt want to M Brain- its fine its just 3rd day go ahead Me- No i dnt want to Brain- Dnt wry reset your counter its just 3rd day have your fun go to washroom Me - entered washroom ... Brain - very good go ahead now Video her she will be ready. Me - vacillating with thoughts and all of of sudden took a cup of cold water and poured over the head. i am not going to relapse. This time brain✌☮️
In this day or age, everything you find is in some way sexualized. Everyone will tell you it's fine, its just the way it is. You walk this path, many a men/women try to, they fail, some say it's madness. everyone will tell you, its fine, everyone does that. Its healthy? IS IT? Its normal? IS IT? Its supposed to happen? IS IT? Its the way of the World? WHO THE F*CK DECIDED THAT.!? Warriors, we will not follow the norms just because someone said so! We will not fall, just because our brain said so.! We will not indulge in 5 second pleasures, just because it's easy.! WE WILL TAKE THE PATH OF OBSTACLES AND TAKE PRIDE IN DESTROYING THEM ALONG THE WAY. ITS OUR WAY! ITS THE SPARTANS WAY! SPARTANS DON'T STOP! SPARTANS DONT FALL! WE.. WILL... PREVAIL!! HOOO --AHHH.!!
God dammit today was the worst, no doubt. I've never came this far, I can almost feel my brain screaming inside me. Nevertheless, I'll stand, matter not; Ha! It's so funny, I feel so weak and powerful at the same time, although maybe I'll rest early today, tomorrow will be better. We can do this, one day at a time
Day 29. A little tingly mischief here and there in the past few days but I just ignore it or glare at the urges and say: "How dare you!" and they scurry back into the shadows.
Day 4 urges popping in but after meditation i am feeling good but still a negative vibe or something disparaging my positivity ... But i wont give up. ☮️✌