BranchingOut

It awoken me years later. I have been at the brink of death so I know what it is to throw everything to the wayside. You don't need materials. You just need yourself, you don't even always need other people. Walk free.

Plan is to buy a cheap utility van, convert to RV, and be a nomad. Planning where to take my showers for work to keep money flow and basic amenities like camp gear. Over time I will build more to rv like solar panels

I will then speedrun trying to increase income (better job now I can drive/doordash) and maybe try for apartment if I get tired of "van life". I will put my money into gas, food, and car insurance

I ran my mouth one time and someone called me out. I have literally never done it again I think to this day is was a lesson I had to be taught. It’s good you’re catching on to it bud, most don’t and just do it with out how it affects others.

Yeah your right. I am actually surprised and disgusted that that is part of my hidden personality. I was even a bit mean spirited towards a girl I kinda liked. Like where did THAT come from? I've got to do some more introspection on my part....

Like I guess I was high on confidence but that was a flash of cruelty I rarely noticed. My guess is it developed when I went thru my 8 years of not trusting anybody. I don't know though. All I know is that I need to purge an evil like that out of my heart.

-a warrior and his son sit in the pastures an share conversation-
son:father when im as big n strong as you i want to be a fearless warrior who nvr scared
father:and you or but also wrong in some sense,for i feel fear the moment i wake till i sleep

son:i dont understand, how do you hide it
father: i don't hide it i embrace it, for my wanting to return home to my family is greater than any fear
..story title an author... unknown

Good to have that awareness, man. There are different seasons in life much like there are different seasons in a year.

Sometimes we gotta delete social media. I deleted Twitter for good. Is basically another porn sight.

i think its been two months since i last viewed porn, i dont have urge for it,pretty fantastic

yep, because neither NEED each other at all lol. focus on yourself.

i dont think marijuana dispensaries do that,i could ask,you can do that with the casinos here

I agree I quit weed. If I smoke I usually pmo. Is a connected pattern.

I threw it out and haven't looked back. That was 3 months ago. There is even a dispensary around my neighborhood and around where I work but I'm done. That chapter of my life is over now. I used to smoke to feel happy but my base line dopamine went back to normal and my increased clarity makes me happy now.. Now it's time to build.