Recent content by PMO addict

I wanted to look up pictures of women this morning. I have like 4-5 days without PMO. I did some recovery stuff and some distraction through movies and games. Anyway, this morning I really wanted to look up pictures of women. I started to tell myself I would once I finish XYZ, and felt the...

I looked at H***** during some times and never found it that interesting.

I think I get aroused when seeing P***. I think there is a kind of vicarious thing or a thing with mirror neurons. I can't really explain it but I definitely get aroused by P***. I dont think judging it as wrong will help.

Well, I think "ugly" is a bit of a harsh or non-politically-correct word. But I guess its just a translation. I get what he's saying.

I think so. Do you mean you're watching these movies with actresses, and feeling lust for the actresses, and then fapping, 8 times a day? Or you haven't done that in 37 days? Or you have been watching the actresses and fapping, but just haven't watched actual sex videos or looked at naked women...

Resting and relaxing. I think those are very important. Working too hard is probably the number one cause of my relapses... When I am over-working I am guaranteed to be in a state of HALT. (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) If today was my new "day 1" without PMO, I guess that it was pretty easy...

The last time I did PMO was yesterday, and when I was laying down to bed, I felt so sickened by some of what I saw. I watched something particularly abusive, which I said I wouldn't! But once I was in that mode, I couldn't control it. I definitely felt... A loss of interest in PM once I had...

I got 61 days by reading this forum every day. I avoided that kind of imagery. Today I started looking at it again... And it easily led back to PMO. So definitely not looking at anything that reminds me of PMO would be what I have to do next time. I mainly did it because I actually just wanted...

There is some old fashioned recovery literature for alcoholics that says some won't recover. And statistics say that some alcoholics stay sober and some don't. But I don't know. Today I did PMO 6 times in my relapse this morning. I'm almost 30. I'm probably permanently damaged but there are lots...

I just think the birth control thing is too complicated. Okay, so I'm gonna wear a condom. Then when I have to finish, I have to pull out, take off the condom and then shoot it somewhere else. It seems too awkward. I would like to be with a woman and have intercourse, not just for...

I usually don't have a choice when I am "on the rollercoaster". Sometimes I can get a few days but if I'm in the cage with the 400 pound gorilla I am gonna be doing things his way! Not my way. I believe in the personal powerlessness concept... That I am powerless over PMO. So if I use it I am...

Theres no reason to feel guilty in a moral sense. In fact if I tried my best on a streak, and did PMO, there's no reason to feel guilty or bad about it at all. I did my best, and that was enough for now. So the guilt is definitely mis-placed. I don't think there is anything morally wrong with...

I heard that for astral projection and lucid dreaming, the semen energy can be retained and used to build the "astral body" I don't really notice anything from semen retention. I think the EMI sensitivity cancels out any benefits... I do think that if semen retention is true. Then I definitely...

s-anon or adult children of alcoholics program (for the co-addict) not trying to control the addict

Also its almost like my urges actually are timed right before the greatest upheavals... If I'd have given into PMO this afternoon I'd never have encountered the stuff that I encountered this evening. Some of the conflict and pain. So my urges were intuitively activating and trying to protect me...