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Day 10 - some anxiety, but not terribly triggered today. Not yet, anyway . . . Nov 16, 2019 at 12:57 PM

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    1. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 10 - some anxiety, but not terribly triggered today. Not yet, anyway . . .
    2. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 9 - triggered again by sex w/ gf. She initiated a position that I could not do (maybe previous bf's could) due to p*nis size. Must not M
      1. SirErnest
        SirErnest
        Try not to worry! I too have sometimes not measured-up. Life is short-bigger things to worry about. No pun intended.
        Nov 15, 2019 at 6:04 PM
    3. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 8 - Didn't M. Had O w/ gf . . . too quickly. Triggered by (and triggering) "dark fantasies". Slept poorly, very poorly. Feel broken.
      1. L'empereur
        L'empereur
        take control, this girl is trolling your mind .
        Nov 14, 2019 at 12:23 PM
      2. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Hmm . . . I think it might be more like my addict mind is trolling my soul and my gf might be getting caught in the crossfire, poor girl.
        I have unhealthy / emasculating fantasies about PE. And those thoughts (addict mind) clouded out loving feelings for her and led me to PE. Normally that's not an issue for me, but the fantasies were too strong.
        Nov 14, 2019 at 8:34 PM
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      +TenPercent
      Day 7 - Urges! Still debating whether I should M. Seeing gf tonight. Don't want to not have desire, don't want to use her to get off.
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      2. rooski42
        rooski42
        stay the course. let the sex in your relationship be female led. the sex is better if it comes from them in the end anyway.
        Nov 13, 2019 at 6:50 PM
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      +TenPercent
      Day 6 - 12h 32 m work day. No sugar. Headache since noon. Feel physically ill, depleted. Sleep now & do it again. Tempted to M and "unwind"
    6. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 6 - thought I might CHOOSE to M last night . . Wasn't feeling it, tho. 12+ hour workday ahead. Cutting back on sugar and caffeine today.
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      +TenPercent
      Day 5 - still frustrated and pissed off about the shirts (though I got them washed today) and occasionally hit with strong urges to M.
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      +TenPercent
      Day 4 - My work is making me stay late on day 3 of 5 when I only have 3 shirts (no time for laundry!). So frustrated. Must not M over this.
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        +TenPercent
        What dicks.
        I had plans to wash my shirts (they only gave me three) on day 3. Now I will either have to miss my recovery meeting on day 2 (or stay up hella late at a laundromat on night 2 or 3) or show up to work on day 4 with a dirty shirt.
        Nov 10, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 2 - contemplating whether I should call that last slip a relapse. How different is it from O during sex? Haven't JO'd or PMO'd in ages.
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      2. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        Thanks lol I tried. What does LTR stand for?
        Nov 8, 2019
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        LTR = Long Term Relationship :)
        Nov 8, 2019
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      4. Tryin' Hard
        Tryin' Hard
        I know what you mean. That's good, though. We need to examine ourselves and our triggers and if immense guilt can help us remember for the future, in a sense I guess the fall was worth it. (Doesn't change that it was a relapse, but it is better than failing being the end all and be all) My prayers are with you!
        Nov 8, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 1 - Had an O y'day doing crunches, felt so defeated. Deep sense of failure. Karezza w/ my gf that night - so healing!! Feeling good now.
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      +TenPercent
      Day 0 - Relapsed. Guess it was bound to happen. Feeling empty and sad. A bit hopeless. But trying to see the silver lining . . .
      1. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        Noe.
        Ok but you made it to 191 amazing days thats one 0 out of 191.Dont let it drag you deep down..get back up soon !
        Nov 6, 2019
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      2. Tiger uppercut!
        Tiger uppercut!
        The feelings are normal but don’t let them drag you into a binge. You’re still kicking ass and one slip doesn’t do anything to all the progress you’ve made
        Nov 6, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 191 - Could it be true? Will my gf again consider letting me abstain from orgasms during sex? Praying for guidance, support & success.
      1. L'empereur
        L'empereur
        Don't rely on anybody.
        Nov 6, 2019
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      2. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Still stuggling with powerful urges. Chaser effect. Fantasies have quite a hold on me.
        Need to recognise that I am on day 4 without an O, so more or less right back at the beginning.
        Nov 6, 2019
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      3. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        I hope she can be strong enough to let you do what you ned to do for right now..which is for the eventual best of the relationship..but i get her I would want my man to cum too lol :b Keep strong, +10%... You just make sure you do some activities to avoid falling down..! Please.
        Nov 6, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 190 - Tempted to (started to?) M at work. Ugh. Just a little touch mixed with shame and anxiety and I could have relapsed in seconds.
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      2. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        Dontttt..you're flirting with a huge void lol it'll suck you through
        Nov 6, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 189 - Chasers, ugh. And keep thinking that I gave into my gf too easily, submissive, having fantasies about where this might lead . . .
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      +TenPercent
      Day 188 - Gf said either we both have O's or we stop having sex. I'm going to have to learn how to live with O's and chasers.
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      2. Fixmybrain
        Fixmybrain
        Dealing with the same shit man. NoFap would be so much easier otherwise
        Nov 3, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 186 - Ugh, anxiety. Crazy sexual desire and urges. The device would help. Calms me down. I guess its a crutch, but going to see gf soon.
      1. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Device on. Ugh. I'm feeling a lot of shame for having to use this, especially knowing that I'm going to see my gf soon.
        I feel almost as much shame as if I felt compelled to M or look at P before seeing her, or just how I used to have to M every time I felt anxious (even at work!)
        But I know I'm doing well. Still recovering from 4 O's in 8 days.
        Nov 1, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 185 - started off really strong and held up throughout a long day, but by the end of it all . . . urges. Time to restore.
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      +TenPercent
      Day 184 - and 14 days since my last O (with gf) . . . theoretically this is where I should be mostly recovered from that O . .theoretically.
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      2. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        @Coffee Candy - we actually met in AA (alcohol) but I think I get where she's coming from. I'd be freaked out dating a sex addict, too!
        I spilled pretty much everything early on in our dating, but I think it's still really hard for her to really understand it. But, so far at least, she does accept my desire (need) to avoid orgasm.
        Oct 31, 2019
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        +TenPercent
        I don't know what I will do if I ever relapse. That could be really hard to explain.
        (or, depending on what happens, it may be something that's better not to tell her?)
        I've also been relying sometimes on a chastity device. Eventually she's probably going to have to find out about that . . .
        I think she'd be ok with it. But it still worries me.
        Oct 31, 2019
      4. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        Hehe, I was wrong, sorry ':)
        Ya..it would be a little scary..

        communication is key you know :) I am wishing the best for you guys and I'm rooting for your streak :)
        Oct 31, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 183 - Half a year without masturbating!!! Hooray! And I haven't looked at porn in months. I hope I never P or M (or O?) again! :D
      1. SirErnest
        SirErnest
        Great work man. If/when you have time, please tell us more on the Success Stories forum. Not many on there of late, and for me personally they really help. Bravo!
        Oct 29, 2019
      2. Coffee Candy
        Coffee Candy
        Thats pretty damn amazing.
        I hope you never PMO again :) I hope you get to a safe state of Oing with your gf without too many chasers for PMO or MOing alone. Keep it up, chammp
        Oct 31, 2019
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Thank you both for your support!
        And yes, I think I'm about due for posting in the Success Stories . . . :)
        And I do hope that I find that balance (so incredibly grateful for a supportive girlfriend who told me about two weeks ago that I don't ever have to O again!). I'm optimistic most of the time.
        Hopefully I'm on the right track!!
        Oct 31, 2019
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      +TenPercent
      Day 182 - twelve days now since my last orgasm and feel like my world is no longer unravelling. I'm back in the game! :)
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    I am DEFINITELY an orgasm addict. Hardmode works for me. Avoiding masturbation with great success. But being in a relationship now adds all sorts of complications.
    Ten releases in 2019: 4/29, 9/10, 10/8, 10/8, 10/13, 10/16, 11/2, 11/6, 11/8, 11/13. Had 43 in 2018 vs 82 in 2017.
    Haven't really jerked off since 12/23/2017. Met a girl in August. Wet dreams & involuntary releases in bold, partial releases underlined
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