90 Days Achieved! "I don't know. I'm not sure why myself. But if I were to take even one step back, I believe that all those important oaths, promises and many other deals 'til now, will all go to waste and I'll never be able to return before you, ever again."
I want to tell this story ... in these last days I had dreams. But they were like temptation where in the dream I was like falling again in this bad thing. The great thing is that even in my dream I was succesful. I could say no. I think that after awhile even in your subconscious you become strong. I don't want to fall again. I want to be stronger also in other aspect of my life. Selfdiscipline is the key and never forget we are weak expecially in some moments.
premier jour, ouverture de la première porte. [Mon état d'esprit : Je me sens bien après un jour, les remords m'ont torturé, j'ai culpabilisé, mais je suis plus fort que hier, car j'ai appris une leçon et maintenant je suis déterminé a quitter le monde obscure des plaisirs immoraux. Que les anges chastes m'accompagnent vers la porte qui me mènera a la liberté. ] Tout est calme, le paysage semble mystique, un chant d'oiseau et un silence de mort règne dans l'air Aucun doute le premier sceau a bel été ouvert. Mais que me réserve donc la seconde porte? a suivre.
Ouverture de la troisième porte Mon état d'esprit: je gagne de l'énergie de jour en jour, je suis plus fort mentalement et à l'aise avec les gens, mon petit doigt me dit que ce n'est que le début , mais que me réservera la quatrième porte? a suivre.
Instead of waiting around for motivation to catch up with you, go ahead and start whatever it is you’re trying to accomplish. Even if it feels like the worst thing in the world at that moment. Take it in baby steps and go for it. (https://www.quora.com/How-do-you-st...sing you to be even,whatever needs to be done.)
I have to say that I am really feeling down... after so many days. I was thinking that I finally overcome this weakness but during the night I had "the fall". The hour actually it's not random ... but it was around 3. I must say that avoiding Fap leads you to a sort of highness and strength that is outstanding (not joking). I made some mistakes that day. Ate too much and ...thought too much! What you think during the days comes in your mind during the night. I want to get back soon. I want to overcome this tempative. I need to control my thoughts to win this battle. I won't lose again!