It’s been a while. And guess what’s not new? Me being back in my hole. Anyway. I may not be able to promise success but I will promise to post everyday. If I miss I’ll post twice the next day. Or more depending on how many times I miss. I need to be accountable and hiding from this community isn’t holding myself accountable. I’m going to post and I’m going to be honest with myself and all of you. If I fail I fail but I’m not going to hide anymore. It’s too lonely out here.
Day 1 complete The first days always easy, hope I can get 40 days done at least with no relapse god willing.
Already failed. Fuck me. Did not want to post was too embarrassed. But needed to own up. I’ll be better
If only I could get through one day. Glad you guys are there to help pick up the lonely soldiers. You guys are my heroes. Hopefully I’ll have better news tomorrow. Thank you for your guys help
Day gone. Been pretty busy so went by smoothly so far. Hopefully tomorrow will be even better than today
Hey im back guys and Im actually doing quite well. Its been 12 days since i relapsed, i have updated my days accordingly. Im doing so well right now and the reason why i stopped posting on here is because i gave up, and i didnt want to be reminded of porn because even this website reminded me of it. However, i must return because I promised to stay to the end no matter what. Im also doing so well because my crush has decided to talk to me back, and I dont want to lose my opportunity with her otherwise i'd be devestated. So I said, are you going to choose porn or are you going to chose her? And I am here to choose her. I need to stay PMO free so that my social skills are at its best, my confidence at my best, my motivation at my best, my willpower. If im being honest, porn stars and other girls actually look ugly to me at the moment because she's just that gorgeous.
Ok friends, it is very sunny here today and my neighbour may wear a bikini in her garden. I managed to resist yesterday. I am trying to see her as a person. I will line up a list of activities for me to keep busy. It will be hot but there will be showers also.
I'm so glad I respected the woman as an equal and gave her privacy. I can get my own 'bikini girl's when I get a gf