I don't know if to cry or not but I'm really hating on myself at present. Screw me!! What a fu*king shame!! I'll keep reading this as I start all over again!! I was already feeling happy but I ruined it myself again!! Omg! I'm stupid, silly, and an idiot. Day 0 again
14/21 I was at school in the morning, in the afternoons home, at night did some homework, feeling bored so am going to bed, cause boredom can be a trigger especially at night.
2 20/21: Damm the last few days have been hard. Lonely nights in hotel rooms do not help at all. Haven't P in ages.. but had some unconscious M.. but stopped myself before it went out of control.. one more day to compete the challenge.. I know I'll make it. But my concern is getting through 90. Anyways.. gonna stay strong.. Unrelated note. Had a cpl of smokes over the past week. But have managed to keep it in check.
