0/90 Hey guys! I haven't been on this thread for about 2 months now (although it feels a lot more like 6 months!). I took a detour into focusing on some other self-improvement areas. I've learned more about myself; my counselor told me that I have bipolar tendencies. It was a wake-up call that made me realize I needed to be far more serious and disciplined when it comes to caring for my mental/emotional health. I've established some really good habits there that I practice every morning, including gratitude, meditation, journaling, self-talk, and prayer. I've also gotten into a good rhythm of physical training and diet as well. The bad news is I've settled into a rhythm of fapping once a week (always at the end of the workweek or the first day of the weekend). I'm gaining more insight into what's going on there and I believe I'm ready to break through that 7-day plateau. Resuming posting here is one of my strategies. As always, thank you all SO much for your support and your choice to be on this journey of recovery and healing. I'm so grateful to have brothers on this path. I believe in all of you!!
Day 4 No M Day 244 No P Have a nice one guys! Visiting my sister in Germany so not too regular with the posts but keeping up the work! Have not watched Universal man in a while! He has some new videos! By the way - for all the New Guys! Check out his videos on PMO and Recovery! They really help in the beginning of the fight! Here is the list - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL38uJEf-kRcau9RjehqN1jlHE_NCRrgWC
I thought I could somehow manage not to get into MO after P slip last night. Nope I couldn't.....I relapsed.
Day 7. I find I’m getting so tempted just by seeing beautiful girls out in public, and letting my mind wander. I know it’s pathetic, but it makes me want to turn to a computer where girls like that are attainable. Gotta keep prioritizing reality, though. Learn to be content with where I am and not envious of the guy at the restaurant with the beautiful girl. Because at the end of the day, if I turn to a computer looking for a girl like that, I’ll still be watching some other dude plowing the beautiful girl, while I’m still alone and envious. Porn is the most beta thing ever.
Day 25/90 Day 582 at attempting this challenge Day 201 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets