Haven't been here in a long time now. NF isn't going too well but I'm thinking of a new strategy. Problems are: * Worrying about sexual function and sexual energy which leads to PMO. * Having problems with loneliness and difficulties with trusting people. Fear of betrayal. Becoming too closed and defensive to let people in. Want to be let alone but still (partly) suffers from it. * Creative imaginative thoughts lean more towards sexual things rather than more productive thoughts of real artwork ideas. I miss 'that' energy flow of new ideas. It creates frustration and lead to PMO. * PMO induced (temporary? permanent?) lack of sensitivity leads to frustration and unsatisfying PMO. And the cycle repeats itself in search of a feeling and a "completion" that never comes. And, PMO is not sex and definitely not love between two people. * Background stress. * Sexual frustration. Feeling emotionelly closed. * Bad mood. Not feeling positive. Feelings of an "inability" to take part of other people's joy. But there's a way out of this and I need to find it.
Day 0, My problem is getting bigger and bigger A lot of relapses... May is my worst month this year. I hope my future self remembers how bad I feel right now. ...... I even have trouble feeling my pain, it's like I'm lying to myself, is there a pain?...
Hey! We have missed you on this thread. Please post more often. And sorry for the relapses. Glad you are not giving up!
