[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

3/90- Went out to the local arboretum and just chilled soaking in the environment and watching the birds. I also meditated for about 20 mins. In this current streak, I want to do the things that used to make me happy such as communing with nature and cycling that I don't do as frequently. Also, I am going back to tackle the root of my addiction, toxic shame. I realized through introspection that I have been dealing with surface level symptoms instead of paying attention to the shame I feel. The feelings of being defective come back to haunt me yesterday when my girlfriend made some cutting comments about me in casual conversation. I can't shake off her words as they are constantly playing in my head but I know it has to do with the fact that deep seated shame has a role to play.

 

Day 10

 

Day 2

 

Day 0 started

 

5/60

 

Day 0 lads

 

24/90.

 

Day 21

 

Day 8

 

4/90- Today, I have restarted my studies on toxic shame and its effects.

 

Day 42

 

Day 2 went well. Day 3

 

Day 11

 

6/60
Somebody died, i've been delegated to attend funeral.

 

Day 8 / 90 !

 

Day 7 of 90

 

Day 9

 

I’m in! Day 0! Let’s go!

 

Day 22

 

Day 12