I'm sick of feeling unmotivated. I'm sick of struggling to maintain an erection with my girlfriend, or even get one sometimes. I'm sick of thinking "I won't see her for two days, so I get to jerk off tomorrow!". I'm sick of feeling guilty because I'm looking at other women sexually. I'm sick of giving in to instant gratification - neglecting my art and music because it requires actual effort to produce something that makes me feel good. I've been reading a lot about rebooting this evening, and it's time for me to make an effort. I want to feel good again, and I want a healthy relationship with my girlfriend. Wish me luck.
