Day 12 F*ck, I'm in the f*cking foulest of f*cking foul moods. At this stage I can't say why, but the urge to just FUCK. IT. ALL. is OVERWHELMING. I'm so angry, just so fucking angry. I'm fighting against caving in doing bad things (PMO, smoking, binge eating, drinking, drugs) because I just want the fucking pain to go away for 5 minutes. Just 5 fucking minutes. But I know if I cave in I'll hate myself for it. I've got to deal with the problems, not ease the pain with distractions and shit. Sorry for the hateful rant but it's taken the edge of things to just blurt and let some of it out. At least I've come to my senses enough to go for run and not PMO. Thanks in advance guys.
Tell me about it @Cypher123! I’m only a couple of days ahead of you and today was the worst day so far. I do feel ok this evening. My main advice (and I’m no expert, when I say I’m on Day 12 this is my first ever reboot attempt) is to keep really busy. Just find yourself loads of other shit to be doing. Bed of all make it something worthwhile doing.
I want to get a gaming system will that help because every Friday I don't attend at my college on Saturdays I'm at work so I'm safe from PMO
Day two down! My experience with day two is that I had no energy to do anything. Not the best way to spend a day but at least I didn't relapse.
Days 3 and 4 are done... My urges to watch porn have stopped but still fighting the urges to mustrabate Going through social media isn't helping too so am going to try and stop going online anyways the only direction I can move is upwards from now on
If you want to game definitely get a gaming system rather than PC. Personally I think PCs make better gaming systems because if you've got the money then you can build a really high end system, but the because they're multipurpose then temptation to open a browser is always a distraction. I know Xbox and PlayStation have browsers too, but more of a faff. Just don't get in the habit of holing yourself up like a recluse... get out there and meet people! You know... real girls Or boys, whatever floats your boat!
A lot of people mention social media as a problem. Christ, I even got triggered by images of fit girls whilst buying fitness equipment on Amazon! A few months ago I did a "digital detox" after reading an excellent book called Digital Minimalism: On Living Better with Less Technology by a guy called Cal Newport. I deleted Facebook, Pinterest (major source of non-P trigger images), Instagram and other apps from my iPhone, and it's amazing how little I miss any of it. I still use Facebook on my laptop because I'm an admin for the private members-only group page of my running club, and we use to post our events and keep in touch with everyone. But I'm focused and very specific about how I use it. I've saved dozens of hours per week and have broken the habit of mindlessly checking my phone all the time.
Day 13 Getting close to completely the 3rd mini-challenge... Feeling so much better today. Yesterday was an utter **** of a day.
I think am gonna stay away from social media for a week and see if my urges go away or at least decrease .. Thanks for the link am gonna read it and get more advice