We have all been where you are now. And who knows, even though my streak is going quite well, I just might be where you are in a few days again. Perhaps this will help you though: it feels like the relapses come out of nowhere, but I've learned more and more that you prepare yourself for the relapse. The trick is to analyse your behavior from the days (or even weeks) before this big relapse. Maybe you were on Instagram or Youtube looking at women, maybe you were stressed, maybe you were thinking about the past a lot... And then the project is next time to catch yourself acting in this way that you now know will lead to a relapse, and then stop it. But maybe then you will still relapse, which is how you will learn that you stopped too late, that it was actually the behavior that you did before that - or the thinking behind that - that led to a relapse and you need to catch that next time. And so on. This is a long and painful process, but it's how you get to know yourself and thus how you can control yourself. And in this process, a relapse is not a loss, but just a moment of learning.
Day 20, haven't Org..but it's been difficult to stay away from touching specially with gf doing videocalls
That’s 25 days completed now. A quarter century of days. Urges down but still lurking there somewhere...
Day 88 completed. Every journey starts with a single step. Every day completed the better partner I become for my future spouse. Every achievement the closer to my recovery.
