Day 7 Feeling good today. Not sure if that's why my urges have decreased, or if it's the other way around. Whatever it is, I'm thankful for the respite.
Day 14 completed ... Wasted lots of time yesterday ... Today is a new day ... Will live to the fullest potential...
Day 4 The Temptation is real, but I'm hanging in there. I get hard-ons but I don't feel like acting on them anymore.
Unfortunately due to my being overly anxious and a depressive mood over coming me yesterday, I decided to escape and engaged in PMO. I even watched some trans gender porn which I have not viewed in months and normally find disgusting. I spent hours on end and could not bring myself to stop. Honestly, I escaped and my anxiety disappeared. But when I finished, the feelings of hopelessness and disgust overcame me. I still feel like shit up to this moment. I relapsed knowingly and became complacent. I have to take full responsibility for my actions. I need to analyze where I went wrong and not repeat it. I cannot blame anxiety and a depressive mood. I am glad though I managed to go 26 days without PMO which was the longest streak I have had in a while. So in that, I can look positively to the future that I am on my way to recovery and healthy living.
Okay, 26 days is not just an achievement, that's friging awesome. I wish I had such willpower in my day. But hey, I know how you feel, but always remember there is a light at the end of every tunnel.
Day #8 Yesterday it was just a hell. About to reset nearly every minute. I didn't but I suffered a lot