Greetings, Today is Day 4 I have decided to start each challenge from Day 1. I will not begin any new challenges until i finish the previous one i started. Thank you
I'm not religious, but I think this quote says it all: "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk" - John 5:8
Day 0/90 Starting from zero again, this time feeling more grounded and secure knowing that anything forced is not the way to go A bit disappointed because I thought I would be able to make it past my previous streak of 63 days but I just got too caught up in trying too hard to avoid it and it got the best of me This time around I won't try as hard, I don't need to because it should just come naturally to me NoFap should just be a subconscious thing that happens with the flow of life rather then something you have to force-ably try at doing, for me at least Let the waves of sexual energy flow over you, don't fight it but accept it but don't let it consume you either It really is a balance, an invisible fine line that we are always teetering on and it's not until we cross that line that we see what it is. Life is so unpredictable, anything can happen and to remain consistent in the face of extreme change is to be brave and to stand up for what you believe to be right. It just so happens that today, I decided I could not stand up to it and it was totally my choice that I am owning. Not a good choice and not something I want to continue doing but unfortunately I chose that today and I just have to live with myself. Definitely not proud of this decision but again it was my choice to do it and the sooner I realize that I have complete control over my decisions the sooner I can live my life the right way. I choose life instead of living for pleasure because I know that there is so much more to gain from a life of living that a life of pleasure. Everyday we are faced with this decision, "Today I choose life", so simple yet so important to tell yourself that everyday to remind yourself of why you are doing this in the first place. Today I learned how important that reminder can be, tomorrow could have been day 64 but it's day 1, ultimately you decide. Thank you for your time and I hope you all have a wonderful day
powerful words bro, so true . yep, i think that mentality of dealing with the present moment urge is way better than to force our way through no pmo until a moment in time where we´re proud of yourselfs. "90 days!! i did it" ok, then what? i think it´s always better to see clearly that pmo is a destructive behaviour. "i choose not to pmo because it damages me very much and the all porn industry is plain wrong so i don´t want to be part of that". plain and simple. i think nofap should be more about a lifestyle than about something we impose on ourselfs to get rid of something. you manage to be more than 60 days clean so the grip of porn on you has weakened a lot. keep going bro, the beast is bleeding badly. keep going!!!
Day 42 For the past couple of days , I had little or no erections...previously I already had been having minimum urges.Today I felt worried that I may be having erectile problems so I decided to edge...I fantasize for a a couple of seconds (and I even stared at non-vulgar images of women for a second ) but I did not edge at all , despite feeling a little aroused and even touching penis for a second. Basically , today I had prevented myself from edging or relapsing. Note: I did not look at any pornography at all today and even if I saw any such thing , it was unintentional and I quickly looked away.the images of women iam talking about were totally non vulgar , I only began to fantasize when I first saw them , until I stopped.
Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 158/161 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102) Day 59/90 consecutive no PM Day 161 no alcohol or caffeine Day 39 of weight training - I am thankful that the issues with the wife are smoothing out and we are getting past our differences - has taken 3 sessions of 3-4 hour discussions to get to understandings - I am happy we seem to be on an even keel now and I haven't fapped still as a result - feeling good about getting my own exercise program going again and being able to do it with my son who is totally into body building is a huge bonus