Very good brother Forget what you don't what in your life but don't forget the struggle and the lessons you have learned from this struggle. With struggle comes the success you wanted to achieve
14/90 awful day,lot of urges and cravings to watch porn and the isomnia is horrible , entered the porn sites multiple time but i quitted as soon as i start to feel aroused or even before i choose smth to watch(hope its not a realapse) its like i m battle between my conscious rational mind, and my unconscious mind addicted to pmo, its really hard, i ll try to stay occupied these days, best luck for all of you
You have chosen a warrior name on nofap, miyomoto musahi (Kenji) was Japan's most famous samouri, so you need to learn to control your PMO addiction with the same level of discipline that musahi used to learn the sword. It's all about mind control. Musashi even died in an upright position. Now that's mind power. Gambate kudasai!
57/5400 Lil message frommy D.CK in shower today. Promise me dump that u"ll never touch me that way again, look at the scars, the sharps, the shit u made in ur fkn 15 yrs of f.ck Look at me while im talking to ur dump mind, i endured all ur crazy crab shit, i swear if u didn"t give me time to heal i"ll give away, never wake up again for the rest of ur miserable life, TREAT ME WELL OTHERWISE I"LL PUNISH U WITH ED FOR LIFE. TELL UR FKN MIND TO KILL THE URGE INSIDE IT BEFORE U R ERECTED IM THE VICTIM NOT THE CAUSE, TELL UR DUMP BRAIN TO GET IN CONTROL.... REGARDS, UR DICK.....
That's some strong stuff. Nevertheless, very real for many guys who had overdone it to a great extent. Noah Church said in one of his vids that scar tissue from too much masturbation is a thing, but sometimes gets better without surgery - abstaining from PMO works wonders, apparently.
It is a battle, but you are still holding on. I wouldn't call that a relapse. Try not to be alone, go hang around someplace fun, loneliness is killer in these circumstances. I've had a very similar experience and the most effective thing is being in public. The other is only using your electronic devices in public, with the screen visible from most angles, at least for the time being.
Im not talking about physical healing Psychological & spirtual healing is the one needed My soul was broken more than my boner NF journey gave me the time Time to use my rational mind To cut the wire between ERECTION & URGE, not to be aroused with each move of my *victim boner* Im resetting my whole sexual behavior not just PMO IM REFIGURING OUT THE WHOLE REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM, GENITALS, BRAIN CENTERS, DOPAMINE, RECEPTORS, ATTITUDE, REACTION, ANTICIPATION, NOVELTY WOW IM DIVING IN DEEP.....
Day 28 / 90 I'm all over this streak. I totally made my mind up on day 1 to get to day 90, no excuses. Watch this and apply it. LOVE IT. 99% is a bitch. 100% is a breeze.