day 23 reporting A -hooo!!! it's normal thing in this journey, i was feeling that too mood swing, angger, yelled, frustation, lazy af.... i even got sleep deprivation but one thing's for sure,, time will heal if u can endure it, then it will heal automatically...but if u want to speed up the recovery process u must do something positive, i mean positive activities, such as sport, read book's, being more religious, communicatin with friend, quit video games, or quit social media/mobile phone addiction etc
Check in day 16. Had a few close calls yesterday. Craving the female energy. No pmo is forcing me to get out and interact with woman again.
Day 48 Tested by fire.. refined like Steel Drank alcohol and had some sugar in the form of jam on toast.. yeah, I know, it’s become uncharacteristic of me. I enjoyed it. It did bring a few urges but because they were expected and I prayed about it. It want as bad as I thought. In fact the thought of the urges made me disgusted that I’d throw it all away. I came out of it with a renewed mindset and thankful to my creator that he encouraged me to begin this journey. Rewatched “The Mandalorian.” I want to learn to be quiet, calm and collected like that guy. People step lightly around stoic personalitys because they don’t know how they will react. A simple raised eyebrow here, hard stare there.. powerful. All because you control your tongue. My side goal is to gain this type of demeanor. I’m going to stop showing off, stop answering people without at least a 3-5 second pause. Give myself time to think up the best response or simply keep quiet and see how people react. I’m not saying I will be serious all the time, but even just a smile will be better than talking a lot.
Yes. This is the deep work. I understand. I’ve been in a long period of zero recognition for my work. It’s a long hard road. We are now in a different cycle. We are working on years now not months. I’m glad you are here!
Check In Day 1(30), Hello Spartans, It is a few hours later than my bedtime. I’m exhausted. I decided to put in some extra effort in my work. I’m glad I did. I need sleep. God bless