[21-CHALLENGE] THE TWENTY ONE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 17 done and gone.. I really need to find a way to come here regularly. My work doesn't allow me the time to come online anymore. And I have noticed that it's kinda making me loose focus of why I started this challenge in the first place. I have to make sure I check in here daily. Anyway here is day 17 done and gone

 

day 8/21
My update; was home the whole day doing school work( i have a lot of school work currently keeping me busy)
Had a dream about a certain female friend (though in the dream am not having sex with her, was more like expecting a hug from her and am kind of very attracted to her in the dream but in real life am not (i dont know why though).

 

Starting day 0. I'm ready to do this..

 

Day 18: done.
Day 19: In progress...

 

Day 1 - No PMO
I'm working hard during these days. It's not easy but I will do my best.

 

Day (2) out of (21).
Mixed feelings... I need to settle down!!!
I feel that a lot of things to do, but I don't know what are they!

 

Busy weekend so missed a few days, but today is 20/21. Almost there!

 

Day 16 complete!
Day 17 in progress!

 

...day 8 ...

 

Had a bad day yesterday but today it feels better, I have been a little more active.

3 days down, 18 to go.

 

Day 10/21 is done. Spent most of the day by myself by going out for lunch and shopping for new foorwear. I can feel my brain changing although there are blurred moments. My awareness of my surroundings seems to becoming more active. If only I can buy a new brain to make it easier!

 

Day 17 completed. Luckily it was an easier day

 

I have relapsed and back to Day 0 but I don't intend to give up so let me start again.

During my last attempt I have learned 2 things. The first one is the chaser effect which partly caused my relapse tonight. I had a most vivid dream of having sex last night (not in the past because of the regular M) and ejaculation only happened in my dream but not physically causing a wet dream. This completely turned me into an extremely horny status today, which I then went straightly into porn uncontrollably after coming back home. The urge was so strong that it feels like nothing could stop myself from it.

Second thing I learned is that porn is really the most effective pmo drive and the best way to reduce the chance to relapse to not watching it, not talking about it and not thinking about it. The other part of reason of the relapse tonight was the sex related conversation I had with a female friend few days ago, as was also the reason for my last relapse before this time. With 2 relapses I decided I will take action to retrain myself from engaging similar conversation again.

 

starting Day 1 right now.

 

11 Days completed ✌

 

Day 0.

Onto the next challenge.

 

Day 1/21 Done

 

Day 1 of 21

 

Day 18 completed

 

21/21 completed. Thanks for the challenge, and good luck everyone!