Having a hard time right now but trying to survive. What's with this crappy rollercoaster of feeling good and then feeling like crap. 24 days ... 66 to go
Sorry for the relapse. Glad you are getting back up, learned your lesson and still in the journey. I see you have also been able to go more than 2 months without PMO which shows that you have more than what it takes to fully recover. Sometimes we may not realize it but the language we use to communicate to ourselves could be dangerous. When we say I'm in a fight, battle or war with regard to PMO, it means that it is a constant never ending war to the death. We will eventually get tired with this mindset. Can we really fight PMO and its triggers for a lifetime? For me this mindset of being at war has proven to be a losing one even with long streaks because it will become a lifetime war. It is better in my opinion to look at this as a journey to healthy living. Healthy living is the destination which could be reached in a relatively short period of time (say a year) then we can live in a manner in which triggers, no matter their form or type have no emotional attachment whatsoever. I believe it is better to focus on the things we want in life and not focus constantly on or run away from what we don't want.
Day 22 I could not have had a better start to this morning. I tweaked my miracle morning routine to include a motivational chant of affirmations, performing some kick boxing routines, reading and meditating on the values I would most like to cultivate in my life. I feel so energized for this day.
Thank you . Yes, you are right, it's important to focuse to the solution, not to the problem. I like your comparison with the journey, it definitely fits. An important lesson I learned so far is, to try to close all loopholes by a person from outside, because I'm not able to trick myself out.
Day 1 pretty much over and done with! Was feeling SO guilty today knowing I'm much better than what I have been operating at, Hopefully I feel better tomorrow