The 4th day is gone and the 5th is almost gone, as well. I need, deeply, a woman who shows me love, who needs me as a man, who wants me bad. I need as well to be involved in a such relationship. I also need to be better with my job, to be more accurate, present and orderly. That is why, I think, that I want to look some porn, masturbate, go with an escort and be focused on things that I am so used too, because it is easier than face the real problems that I have. Yes, PMO is my drug. I feel that I am in depression. It is not a good feeling. But I will do 2 things: 1. Keep going with no porn and masturbation. 2. Be focused on my job and personal problems related with the job. So, my dears, the show must go on. Do not relapse, stay focused with your goals.
Day 3. I've got a lot to do today, so I'll keep things short. It's one more day that I've gotten healthier. Now to do this 9 more times. May 6th.
Day 24. Had school all day so no problems there. It was the first day in school after a two week break, and usually I hate Mondays but today it really wasn't that bad. I just felt way better overall.
15th day. A chaser effect day came from nowhere yesterday. No real risk of a relapse but a tortuous day and a reminder that you can never let your guard down. This is a challenge, but we'll get it done!
Well, I fucked up today. Day 6 at this challenge and 28 days of my first streak are gone... Anyways, Day 0.