I feel generally okay. Can’t really feel much benefit as I’m on meds. Until I come off meds I’ll know what 295 days has done to me. Yes I still have a flat libido, mainly meds and pied.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok I am out of it but not completely clean. I was reading about Baudelaire, and casually stumbled accross a painting showing a cunnilingus. Sure, it was a painting, but there were naked women as in a porn. I didn't touch myself, but that painting, that image bouncing around in my mind!! I'll continue counting from the 3rd of January, but I came very close to catastrophe this time. Tell me what to do! P.s. Flatline? No, I was just dreaming.
Thank you for going 295 days, meds or not. We each have our own path, no 2 people are the same. You are doing what you can do and that is worth anyone's respect.
Do something to pass time where you don't have an opportunity to relaps. Take a walk, exercise, get away from devises with screens for a bit, go somewhere around people that gives you no privacy. Urges come and go, it will pass on its own soon enough.
Was this something you were reading for a class? Sounds like you didn't seek out the painting to find something to turn you on, it just came to you through the course of life. So if that's the case, I'd treat it like another stimulating input that just happens sometimes, avoid looking at it again and give the urges a little time to pass.
Day 1 behind and got the feeling like my horses tried to get away running. Getting them in strict hold helped, of course with the help of God.