Guys few small streaks before I was able to do quite a long streak (43days) without smartphone. But when I got using smartphone I relapsed soon. From that time till now I never had hope that I could a long streak until now (21 days) with having a smartphone.now I am confident that I have the potential in me to do a streak with my will power. During my 43 day streak I was able to develop good habits like reading novels and I even completed 2 novels that time. And woke up early morning too. But in my last streak which lasted 21 days during this time I couldn't inculcate good habits which was my biggest mistake. This time I will not let that happen. This time I will include habits from day zero itself. All I have to do is not to get overconfident and should not be alone. Both my long streaks had one thing mainly in common, I say to myself whenever I get urge or thought that " I should not think sexual, I should think normal and healthy. I should be alert ... I should be in the present moment". I keep saying this to myself and it helped me a lot many many times. The main reason to my present relapse is some sexual news that came on Google newsfeed. This time I understood that whatever I filtered is not enough. This time I will be more careful and filter better. I will once again start next new novel. I will wakeup early once again. I will clean up room once again. I will keep raising everysingle day if I have to. Every relapse for me should result in me doing some work like cleaning up room or increasing the intensity of my good habits. Just like cut one head of hydra and two grows in its place. Every relapse should result in making me inculcate habits in a better way. More extra careful with every relapse. I may fall depressed after a relapse but I will rise from it to be better me. Cheers guys.
Thats ok. be gentle with yourself, appreciate you could hold on for so long, its already a milestone... but remember when you try very hard to suppress these urges somehow they bounces back very hard sooner or later. like a spring...when you put pressure you could keep it for a while and but when pressure is released then spring just bounces back... same happens with our habits...they are so hardwired in our system...avoiding them for a while seems an achievement...but deep down inside these urges are stored as sensory memories, which can trigger anytime....so i think based on my own experience is...to make friends with your own desires....and paying more attention and looking at them objectively without putting any pressure or criticism or judgement... just let it be... at the same time....reminding your will power the goals you have set for yourself.... morning and evening at-least for few minutes everyday....with will power you could avoid it for a while...but until and unless you have changed your habit pattern ....we come back to old things again.... its a long process... not suppressing or hiding or hating or judging or running away from emotions but understanding, observing, witnessing them and with perseverance .... habits have build up over time...so they subside also with time
9/90! 10% of the challenge completed! Wow! It's being a lot harder and slower than expected. Today's being an excellent day, tho. Keeping up with the upcoming challenges
Day 3, all going well, noticing urges but going away to something else. Work and sport taking up days and night, which is good. Tomorrow, I've got golf practice, some work. Meditation also helping, 15 minutes each night over past three nights. Until tomorrow team.