Day ZERO again after hardly working and binging like hell. I couldn't stop it in the last three days, it hurts so bad, i couldn't sleep and i need to travel long but i am a total wreck, really! My taxi comes at 2 AM so I went to the gym at 11 PM for 2 hours and now: I feel great for a moment and can write again in this thread. But being two weeks alone working will be a drag. I really don't know how to cope with the spare time as Porn eats up all my own time... I was so positive in the beginning of the year. Hmm
Hey buddy, just a suggestion from my own experience. When we stop looking at P, it leaves an empty space, into which so much time & energy has been poured. Just blocking the P only takes care of half the problem - we have to find something productive to "fill in" the hole, until real change can slowly take root. This is where a good plan for what to do when the urges come is essential. We can't only be letting go of the negative, we must simultaneously be reaching towards the positive. So perhaps ask yourself, what is important to you, what are your passions, what would you like to develop more of in your life? Maybe you want to exercise more, or read more books, or expand your social connections, or learn a new language, or pick up a musical instrument, or get really good at crosswords, whatever, it doesn't matter, as long as it's something (or multiple things hopefully) that can occupy your mind and body when you're trying to change your default go-to which is yet another round of P-binging. Anyway, hang in there man, many of us including me have been in that exact situation, totally spent and empty, and so you're not alone ok? There is a path through it. Take what you've learned, and try to get a more complete plan in place to tackle the challenges when they appear.
Day 4 / 90. All going well. Noticing urges or triggers, but keeping busy. Lot's of sport, lot's of work. Plan today - stretch and relax before a big day of golf tomorrow. A little bit of prep work for next week. But feeling in control. Keep strong team, until tomorrow.
Just relapsed. It is 03:20 AM over here. No wonder I relapsed, considering that I should be asleep for several hours...
Day 40- check! Wet dream -check! Busy- check! Living your life to the fullest- check RISE of a beast- check!!! PORN? - FUCK! GET OFF!!