Day 3/90 Feeling better than I did several days ago. Getting busy and out of the house to study more. Just gotta do it, so doing it!
Still relapsing too and still got those neggative thoughts and unmotivation... I tried to figure out what are my triggers... maybe the phone?
Day 0 Found my trigger! It was the whole time my fucking phone, but my solution is kinda strange xD To avoid relapses I took a new background screen on my phone and PC. On my PC is Jason Brody from Far Cry 3 who has the whole time an eye of me what I am doing on my PC. Almost like my profile picture here on NoFap. On my phone there is Hat Kid from A Hat in Time who watches me with a face like:" Please, thats disgusting, stop it!" And each 10 days I will change the background screen on a happier face. And if I relapse, then I change it back to a sad face. The goal is not to disappoint my favourite video game characters. And I can`t masturbate in front of "persons" who are watching at me Yeah, sounds weird I know but I will try it and see if it works : D
I feel good. I feel free from a lot of stuff that before was just impulses I reacted to. There is also a sort of fogginess I was living in before that is no longer there. Now I see more areas I'd like to grow and other things attached to this that I'd like to get free from. Anyways... Day 91!
Day 8/90. Feeling good. I feel like it is a detox. Flushing any social media cravings out of my system. And I can totally do it. It's just not giving into that subconscious part of your mind. Still get urges but letting them pass by. Being mindful is helping. Stay strong team.