Day 0/90 I failed M today, made masturbation unconciously. So I have to reset my PMO plan. Now i realize that It's hard for people to overcome temptation, so the best way is not to give themselves the chance to face temptation.Don't take a chance and think your willpower is amazing. I'm just an ordinary person.Don't give up doing simple things over and over again. Be more cautious and serious about yourself.Don't be afraid of suffering, don't overestimate yourself, don't be lazy
Day 7/90 - my first week without porn/masturbation and no real difficulties so far. It's still early days so I'm not counting any chickens just yet.
Well. This is my second date. When I am writing this, the urge is at the peak. I really want to do it. I told myself if can not even compete with my lower self. How can I win any thing in life. If I want to be a millionaire, spend less time on PMO, spend more time on study for stock market. if I spend too much time thinking about PMO, there is no way I can get closer to my crush. She does not want a man who is obsess with PMO. She want a competent man. A competent is who can take care of her. If you can not compete with yourself, how can you compete with others to have her. I am in 90 day challenge. I am able to do it. I can do it because I want to have meaningful relationship with my crush and a successful life.
Starting tomorrow I will begin to eat healthy again. No more fast food or pop that shit is garbage. Green tea, eggs, fruits, vegtables, almonds and looooooots of water
Day 0/90 I relapsed again. I believe the reasons of it ; I tried to run away from it. I should have accepted it. I stayed in bed instead of doing something else. Next time will be the time for action. I started to spend so much time with my phone, especially with Instagram. I need to cut the connection Today, I didn't lose, I learned some valuable lessons. I know I am not that guy, I know I can do much better. Next time when the urges start to hit again, I am going to ask myself the question; "Is it really me?" I know it is not, watching P is never an answer, it will never be. It is like, I have the key of the cage I am in, but I keep putting myself into the cage continuously. The outside world is a wonderland, I just need enough courage to take the step. I am going to try over and over again until I win. I wish you all a great day.
I saw you relapse a couple time. It is a rough journey man. I am happy that you are being honest with yourself. You need to find a stronger why. Why do you want to quit PMO? and Have you ever read "The power of habit". It is a great book on how to change a habit. Once you understand your habit loops. You can manipulate it in your way. Good luck. I hope you dont relapse next time.
I've made a lot of research about habits and how to break them. Sometimes fighting with yourself gets too hard and makes you really tired. But i learnt my lessons, i am going to do it this time! Thanks for your reply!