Just joined and fully intending to go 180 days without PMO as a starting point, but ideally, I want to quit for good. I've seen enough porn to last a dozen lifetimes and it doesn't compare to great sex, and it has broken me so that I no longer can have great sex - DE, ED, you name it, I've had it. F*ck you porn! This seems like a good place to come (pardon the pun) to help me stay on track Good luck everyone!
Day 1/90. Status report: Nothing serious has happened today, I have decided to combine my commitment here with a book challenge on goodreads figured it will help me to keep my head in the game and avoid the temptation to touch my dick. But we'l see how that goes. My porn triggers always come online when am stressed or disappointed and I doubt there is a heavier stressor for an entrepreneur like a Monday. But we are determined to go all the way.
Day 3/90. I got a lot of things done today and felt good about it. I was almost tempted a couple hours ago though going through some folders on my computer. It’s crazy how fast and powerful some thoughts seem to come upon me sometimes. I kinda squinted my eyes and sang to myself as I deleted the old files. Then I did a bunch of pushups and went jogging. Thanks to these forums I’m learning how to let these thoughts pass and not judge them or identify with them. I feel like I’ll sleep well tonight.
Day 3/90, going good. It's interesting. I now realize the first I usually do when I wake up is play with myself. It's really how I managed to get out of bed. Pretty much just edge for half an hour. Lol. Fuck. Realizing how much time I waste with all the fantasizing usually. Now I have extra time. Just need to be motivated to do the things I've been ignoring.
Day 4/90 - in the office today so no real temptation - at least not until I get home. So far so good.
Day 8/90 just heard I have a serious injury on my knee, this brings me a lot of negativity. I hope I can still continue and finish this 90 day streak. Good luck guys!
Day 3/90 complete. Seems like the days are going by so slow. Wish I started this a long time ago and stuck with it.
Day 4/90 No issues so far. I just finished the book Shift Into Freedom on meditation and am slowly putting some of it to practice. Think I will need it in the days to come.
Hello guys! I am really sorry to write this down but I relapsed :'( Today I was studying my exams which one of them is tomorrow, after that the thoughts of P and M kept coming to my head. I did well to get rid of the first and second wave but I could not control the third one. I should have gone outside, just walking until the urges over but I don't know why I did not. I let myself down, I let you down because you are doing so well. Everyone here is focused on the 90-day goal. I must admit I feel very sad right now. After doing a 20-day challenge, I could not be able to do it again. Sometimes I just think that no matter what I will do, I won't be able to stop PM. No, I can. I can stop PM shit. What was I thinking? What do you do when the urges start to hit you? I think I need some advice I am %100 sure that I am not giving up. I will try again and again until I get rid of that disease. Stay strong my friends.
It's been a while ago since I had urges (flatline). That being said, I have simple strategy that works for me. My problem is PMOing in front of computer screens so when I get urges (aka as soon as I open some website with adult material) I turn off my PC, put on trainers and go for a 30-60 min run or cycling (I also have indoor trainer in case of a rainy day). While running I force myself to think about how silly it is that I wanted to MB on a bunch of LCD pixels. Strategy in case of a slip (single time PMO) is to pick up my prepacked backpack, call my boss to tell him I need 3 days off (I told him beforehand that I might do that once without explanation and he agreed to it) and take a trip or hike for 3 days to prevent slip becoming full blown relapse.
