My sleeping times have been really sporadic so that might explain my lack of sleep Also the last thing I did before bed last night was stare at my screen stressing about finishing an essay for class, so I'll have to change what I do before bed that doesn't involve doing work or electronics, maybe I'll read idk Also I have unfortunately been entertaining a lot of sexual fantasies and pornographic thoughts which in hindsight coupled with all the stress and lack of sleep, could have been the catalyst for my risky behavior Like I said I don't intend on quitting, I'm taking what I learned from the last streak and using my failures to see where changes need to be made for this streak to go farther
Day 48 Again an unnecessary day in school, so I used the time there to search about my possible job as Game Designer or Artis, I think better Artist because I would rather create a character then programming something. Felt some urges but also loneliness the day, also again weird dreams...
37/90 It was a good day. I was everywhere in the city today, had some good day with my friends. I didn't finished what I wanted for today, so I'm a little bit depressed because of that, but it will be better
I also plan to greatly restrict my killing time activities, like gaming, youtube and movies. i have also created some mind numbing internet surfing habits I need to cut off. I plan to read as much as i can and start exercising and biking more. Also make more food at home and eating more healthly and cut some weight.
so i couldn't even make 1 full day without porn .. this is embarrassing, at one moment i feel like i am in control but everything change so fast and i find myself watching porn again. can you guys give me tips to overcome this .. i have been an addict for more than 14 years since the age of 10 this addiction it has come to a point it is literally destroying my life , my career I really need help i have never got passed 3 days without porn in those 14 years..
Hey man, this might seem unrefined, but know that it is the choice you make, if you don't watch porn/fap it won't kill you, it's kind of what I remember when I feel like breaking my streak. And also read bramacharya, an Indian script, it will definitely help, plus you gotta pray against lust.
Day 43/90, which nearly reach one half of 90 challenges. 2 days left. I'm focusing on learning English and playing the guitar. I'm so happy right now. I hope you guys have a awesome day.
Hoping there is better sleep tonight, being alone in my bed is the worst time for me Praying for strength and peace of mind, I desperately need to bounce back from this
Yesterday I attained new streak that I never attain for a while. But yesterday I also relapsed. Yesterday has been quite difficult, strong urges combine with some problems in my family. But still I don't give up. Start again from day 0.
Day 1 I felt down. Need to get back up. I'm still proud of myself. 33days streak. It didn't happen since I joined nofap 3 years ago.