It's awesome that you didn't relapse. And why others do? Everyone perceives the world differently, a lot of things we experience different just because that's in our DNA. To some people, celery tastes bitter, beets taste like dirt and cilantro tastes like soap. Who can know what it's like for another person to navigate their life? We can only focus on our own business and wish the best for everyone else.
Back after a while. Need to start this challenge again. Starting the 90 day and 365 day challenge. I relapsed a few hours ago engaged in pmo and its destroying my life, ive accepted I have an addiction and I need to overcome this. I did really good for a while but life happened and I got myself back into pmo. Will post 1/365 tomorrow night before bed, check ins at end of the day just as I did before. I want to do both 90 and 365 so that I can post in both, if I make it to 90 days I can keep posting here and go further. I have a problem, im very addicted to P and I can overcome this.
Checking in. This thing is an addiction and like alcohol or gambling I have the best chance of success if I take it ONE DAY at a time with the intention of abstaining for life. If I just look at it as 365 days I may feel justified in acting out and end up back on the same life destroying treadmill. I am powerless over porn and can be free with the aid of the Higher Power and others. Another successful day one day at a time.
IX. I've got to accumulate days, and fast! Every time that my girlfriend dares looking at me, I have an erection and start to shake and sometimes I can lose some Sperm! My brain is so fucked up that it doesn't even work without porn now! What if in the future we decided to make love or that kind of stuff and I couldn't?! What would I say? "Sorry, Naomi, I'm experiencing PIED"?! NO, I'D LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT TO HER!! Have you been in a situation like this, where you love someone but your body doesn't allow you to do so? Wish me luck guys, I need it now more that ever!!