I know PMO is effecting the daily life. How its destroying. I can see the big picture. But for the first time I saw one incident with clarity(Very close look) how effectively this PMO is destroying me . Few days back before I relapsed, I had my work scheduled and saw its importance and all. I can feel it in me. But then... after relapse, I couldn't even remember what I scheduled (WTF!). And when I came across the schedule paper by accident, I just realized how PMO is making me numb to the work I have to do which was so much important to my life (Literally guys, this scheduled work is what my life needs now to put me out of educational troubles and yet I forgot). How careless I am becoming as I am indulging myself into pleasure of PMO. By the way i was PMOing like 5 times ...7 times a day for 3 days straight. Still even with the clarity I couldn't stop myself from PMO. For the first time or maybe 2nd time, I took the cold shower today just an hour back. This fresh feeling is quite good. But my brain is quite foggy from the mega relapses. Well I just felt I should my thoughts with you guys. So here I am. Cheers Guys.
Everytime I love it when you write something, it cheers me up, of course the other quotes too Im very thankfully to everybody Maybe this is also one point, I should accept me fully. There shouldnt be a thing that embarresses me, maybe more honer or brave
Day 11 completed .....today I had lot of stress exams pressure... rebooting along with exam pressure is tough
Day 7 of no PM Day 76 of no alcohol or caffeine Day 44 of weight training - just checking in to say all is well and my mental state is happy and healthy - happy to report my love life with the wife is doing great too - woke up with strong wood this morning which lead my wife to want to put it to better use - had a great session without any performance anxiety, PIED (limp biscuit), just a little bit of flashbacks to porn during sex but I am sure that will eventually go too
47/90 Felt more energy because at morning I did workout. I really needed some stuff that boosts up my heartbeating because I decreased my caffeine amount too.