Day 31/90 now i need to focus and keep busy i can feel it building now 29 days till 60. And also does anyone take zinc supplements? If so, what kind of benefits do you feel?
Day 5/90. Wednesdays have been days I've failed so far this month. Praying and preparing so that doesn't happen. Really want to reach 7 days and break through this mental block of "I can't do it" that's been illogically repeating in my head for the past month. I spent 2 years fighting porn till I beat it - I can spend another week fighting MO to win here, too.
Day 64 Just realized something: My whole life I was alone. I have no siblings here, my parents are often away for work. Since I was born my grandma and grandpa cared for me, because we just moved into Germany from Russia. Anyway I spent my childhood a lot with my cousins or some friends outside. I think with 12 (as I started with porn), the loneliness begun... The older I got the more I didn`t met with friends or went out or something like that. I was home alone, after homeworks I played video games or watched porn. Like I said my goal is that in this vacation I want to be very social active. On Monday I was by a friend and guess what? There I felt lonely and sad. Yesterday I was again by this friend but with 2 more people. Man that was cool! We all had a lots of fun and everybody felt happy. Today another friend wanted to meet me. At first I didn`t wanted. I wanted to be home. Alone. Far away from everybody! So I lied that I have no time and searched for excuses. But exactly at this moment my mind told me:" Dude, the fuck are you doing? I thought you don`t want to be alone!" Also when friends are calling me on my phone, I dont answer the phone, because I feel uncomfortable to talk with them. It`s everytime a fight against myself when people want to do something with me. I dont know if this is normal or not, but since I started NoFap I have these "anxiety"? And I dont want that loser life, earlier before porn I remember how I was. And it was great! . Could it be that porn destroyed my social "skill"? xD idk how to say it A new goal to me: Be brave, thougher, more focused!
i feel the same thing. the longer the streak the more likely for me to forget the porn pain and start to ease my aproach. even if on day 0 i swear and curse but after some weeks, when the withdrawal hell lifts, i start to relax and change my attitude "eiii, why not take a peak?" in the end is all the same problem: addicted brain. let´s stay strong my friend. learning and moving.
it´s normal bro, you´re gonna relapse, your mind will not surrender easily. in fact, you need the relapses to know stuff about yourself. the important thing after a relapse is learning, knowledge is power. go bro, much love
