That describes me to a T and I have the damaged prostate to prove it. Did you find any medical research on edging and prostate damage. I never did but I am sure that is what gave me BPH (enlarged prostate). Thanks for this post.
Fucked up guys. Watched porn and came close to getting an escort but didnt. I want to get this thing so bad. But I know I have to take more action.
We need to stay vigilant. A news story about a sex worker came up on my news app. There was a non nude photo of this attractive woman. Started to read it, got off it, looked at it again and realized “This is definitely not what I need to be reading and looking at! One day away from 90 days!” Came back to the present moment and the buddy I was hanging out with, hit up a support meeting, went for a run. Changed the momentum. These things can start out fairly innocent, and often are. And we can’t all live in monasteries or ashrams or off the grid and away from sexuality. But these innocent beginnings are often our addiction finding a way in (it’s just a story, it’s not nudity) to try to sabotage our efforts at this new lifestyle. Good luck everyone, my plan is to finish the night strong, and to post my last message on this particular thread tomorrow when/if I reach 90 days. I’ll remain active on other threads, challenges, etc...you all give me hope. If we keep going, we will eventually get this. It’s inevitable that if we don’t give up and keep coming back, we will get this. We will conquer this!
You have done amazing and have been very successful congratulations tomorrow is your reward a successful 90 days Hopefully you gained some wisdom from this experience, I keep struggling but I’ll get there
Day 101 Damn, I feel very weak, like a sick old man... My muscles are weak and hurt, I feel like I haad not enought sleep, sore throat. I even didn`t go to school today because I feel like shit. Maybe it`s because the Sims 4 is now available for free (I think still 5 or 4 days) and I played 5 or 6 hours till I noticed that I need a break. I feel like I relapsed but without that disgusted bad feeling inside me. Just like physical relapsed. Y`all know what I mean?
Day 26/90 successful. My skin is still breaking out. Feeling tired mentally. Memory is still poor. Don't know when will these be gone.
I too face similar problem of news reading related to sexual.But I get back to my senses somehow while reading and stop and move forward.
Day 1, My life changes now. This won't solve everything, there are other challenges and difficulties in life, but this is a major one. And a crucial change Well done everyone who's part of this group You people rock! Let's do this thing