The 2nd What a roller coaster of emotions I had last night! The urge to watch porn was very high. I almost gave in. At the last minute, I decided to distract myself with youtube. I feel better today. I feel more optimistic and I think I regained my momentum. I have to admit this addiction is no joke whatsoever. I am back to doing the basics that until recently had been my mainstay: Meditation, cold showers, exercise and making a daily to-do list. I became complacent and comfortable. I realize that comfort is not a good thing for me. It leads to procrastination, boredom and chronic anxiety in my case. Let me live in discomfort and spur growth constantly.
Checking in Another day free, minimal use of internet and smartphone. No porn no masturbation I had long meeting with ny girlfriend I am thinking about my education, maybe in next semester I will sign nyself up for extracurricular activities. I study at business schol at weekends, and I would love to start my own business one day. This way I could learn more hmm Anyway I am glad I am another day forward It feels great, it isnt wonderful already but I am curious what nay happen after 2 years of abstinence from porn, excessive masturbation and excessive internet and smartphone use.
Well guys, I relapsed today after over two weeks. Not a bad run but I'm a bit disappointed because I know I can go much further than that. I learned a valuable lesson about self-care while traveling. I could feel early on that I was starting to slip into unhealthy habits (eating poorly, not exercising), but I chose to respond by chemically inducing good feelings using caffeine and alcohol. That might be ok very short-term but it certainly did NOT work for me over the course of 3 days. By the time I got home I wasn't thinking straight at all and went straight for the phone to look at porn. I ended up going on a little skid for the next couple of hours and masturbating 3 times. So that's a definite fail! The lesson is that learning to find VERY healthy ways to take of ourselves and being VERY aware of how we're feeling is extremely important. I'm starting the 365 day challenge over again with tomorrow being day 0 (resetting my counter to midnight tonight). In addition to this, I'm committing to going the entire year without any caffeine or alcohol. So, 365 of no PM, no caffeine, and no alcohol. Thank you all for your support and I wish you all the best on this journey!!
Learn to be comfortable with discomfort. I like it. Cold showers helped me with that too. For almost 3 months now ive been taking one first thing in the morning on most days and while its still a bit " uncomfortable " ive come to enjoy them. I think we need to push beyond our limits in some way every day if we want to keep growi g and achieve anything close to our full potential. I want to meditate more and get comfortable withe the discomfort of sitting still with myself.Nice post.
Its good youre getting right back on track. I like the idea of no caffiene or alcohol. While ive been sober thru A.A. for a few years now i struggle with coffee. So im adding regular coffee to my list of surrenderd addictions. Starting now. Thanks for the inspiration.
Great resolve,but be careful of setting the bar too high. You could allow yourself some alcohol or coffee as a reward when you reach targets.Of course it's up to you, but I like a bit of alcohol in moderation from time to time
92. Closing in on 100, that's my next short-term goal. Long-term my goal is not even a number - rather it's deep inner change. No matter the setbacks or struggles, we must always believe this is possible. Keep going friends.
distracted by website offering random strangers chatting website for last 2 days not going to use anymore but now again back on track & thankfully I didn't let all my efforts go fruitless...anyways day 121/365