God works in incredible ways. From one Christian to another, thank you for this reminder of His glory!
Welcome brother It is just a community which helps you lift above the pmo habit . Just start the challenge, make a decision band then post your experiences the next day. It will help your subconscious mind to get away from the bad things that you have been indulged in.
Just failed. Pretty pissed off with myself. Not even 3 days, pathetic! (I don't want any sympathy). That is not even a small dent in this challenge. Started to stray this morning, but then took myself out for breakfast. Only came back home to change my shoes and make a packed lunch to go hiking. Strayed some more, then some more then just didn't stop. So hard to draw that line between which part of your brain is thinking or not thinking and in control. I was really feeling good about this. Was convinced that I would get to at LEAST 30 days, even though that is more than I have ever done before, and then would just push on from there. Now my head feels all funny. Kind of like a headache. Back to being serious. We go again. Bring it!
Day 74: Reality hit me hard today. I tasted all the bitterness of my future, this dark and lonely void of my existence.
Day 6/90 completed. Was traveling so couldn't update. Woke up today with a real hard morning wood after a long time.
3 days no porn. 1 day no caffeine. I really want to drink coffee right now but I also know that it's terrible for recovery. And it seems to trigger me to watch porn. They both strip out my dopamine and I dont need that. I've done that enough.
0 days PMO 7 days minimal sugar 10 days no alcohol 33 days no social media The last few falls have not been to bad. Have not needed near the intensity. Stuff that has not excited me for many years. Decades. I am resensitizing. Stuff I used to enjoy does not excited me. I have not binged all night until early hours in the morning in a couple of months. I don't make very long streaks but my falls are not as bad as they used to be. I look forward to getting a regular job. I drive Uber to make ends meet. I need a smart phone and internet. There will come a time soon where I can get a flip phone and have no internet for awhile. Maybe the job will have benefits that will pay for a psychologist. Enough money to eat really healthy. I think it is time to do a 54 day Rosary novena. I will start that today and keeps accountable on here.
