Day 14 My last good strake of 25 days, around 14, 15th day I started to feel awesome, and I felt like that until I relapsed. Now, on day 15, with 14 days behind me, I feel worse than ever. I really do hope it will pass soon, because I even edged for at least 30 seconds this morning.
At least its over two weeks when I binged, I wont that happen again, because it drains all the results I have managed to make.
day 6/90! Today is the always the best day to not give in to PMO. Good luck everybody. This life is worth rewiring.
Day 74 It was all going great and I had a wet dream last night. I must say I am feeling kind of relieved now but a bit guilty as well. This is my second wet dream during this 74 days streak, last one was on day 30 therefore I will say its an improvement and I am recovering!
Started Challenge on Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 7/192 Days Day 90/90 meeting my goals Day 54 of weight training - feeling good with strong resolve today to abstain from PMO even after having alcohol and caffeine yesterday which can be known triggers - WOW! day 90/90 has finally arrived, though still not completed properly yet so "I'll be back!" as Arnold says. LOL - I will be leaving this challenge for a couple of weeks to regroup for the next 90 day challenge which I intend to start on Aug 19, my 22nd wedding anniversary - I relapsed 4 times this time around but continued counting because I wanted to see what level of success I could achieve in 90 days- more like a score out of 90 approach - 86/90 days of no PMO is a HUGE success in my books and will continue to look at the glass as an optimist would, half full - since joining nofap, my average of 7/192 days works out to a relapse only about once every month which is significant improvement from the past - this approach helps me stay positive and I highly recommend it over restarting your counter every relapse - hopefully next challenge will be the one with a zero relapse - I think I will will break it down into three 30 day challenges which may feel more manageable - I will continue to post daily on my "Reboot and BPH Journal" if anyone wants to follow my progress - see you all on Aug 19 and good luck with your challenges - special thanks to @RiseToGreatness as your posts and comments have been very helpful - keep it up, bro! - Cheers!
Aug. 7, 2019 2 days no masturbation or porn. 11 days trying to cut back on sugar. 14 days no alcohol. 37 days no social media. Rosary 2 days. This new approach I started yesterday seams to be working well. Been crushing cravings. I feel like I made some new pathways in the brain yesterday and this morning. Some urges, but I absolutely will not touch Willie. I do not know why, but this shift of attention from not watching porn to not masturbating is making a real difference. I have always looked back to the day when I found porn and regretted it. Never ever did I look back to the first day I masturbated. I think that day was a way higher mistake. It was a year or two after I found porn. It was a full and conscious decision to try. Finding porn was not. Never apologised to God for that day. I just did. I am crying a bit. I am feeling a good and healthy remorse. That was the worst decision of my life. I hope I can continually make the full and conscious decision to not masturbate now. My porn is one thing. I did not decide to be exposed to something so powerful at such a vulnerable age. I did decide to try masturbating. I take full responsibility for this one. I can't believe how much I am crying. God, I know I made a terrible decision. Please forgive me and if you will it, please give me the strength to stop. I quit drinking for over 10 years once. The quit day was 15 years ago today. Kind of cool that I am having this revelation today. I am going to stay off the booze from now on too. While I never did have more than 2 drinks in a day in the last 5 years like I promised myself. I think it was a mistake. My family has terrible alcohol issues. It's so sad. They were all happy and relieved to see me drinking again
Finally have 1 day back on the clock. Not been binging, just not been making it through the day. My attitude has been slowly improving, as well as how I feel. Hope this is the start of something. Had a really good chat with a friend yesterday. Talked about all sorts of things, but the one that stuck with me is when she was talking, and reminding me, that life is all about choices. We choose how we act, how we react, what we do and even how we want to feel. In 'The Art of Happiness', with the Dalai Lama, it talks about how we can choose to be happy, and that it is a skill that you can train and practice. Some words to get you thinking there