Another day one day at a time.The last 9 days have gone by quickly. I feel much better and am putting out better energy judging by the way others are responding g to me and to how I feel.
Well. As one orthodox monk said , when was asked by his pupil, that "when our fight with passions will have finished?" "With our death" was the answer. So i start it again. Day 1.
Guys I'm back to 0. Made it 135 days before crashing out tonight. I felt restless and bored and frustrated with my life, and so just ended my longest streak ever for no good reason. I barely even enjoyed it. Maybe I needed to re-discover what I haven't been missing? Anyway what a pointless waste of time and energy. I let myself down and feel like I let you guys down too. But in a way I'm not too bummed about it. Noticing how I rapidly escalated from just "peeking" at a few sites to full-on binge mode just makes me realize a little more clearly, what I already felt deep down ... that I just have no middle-ground with P and my only path forward is banishing it from my life altogether. I'll probably stay on this thread since I've previously completed the 30/60/90 day challenges, while this one still remains elusive for me.
Thanks for sharing my friend...you’ll bounce back quickly. As I’m sure you know, it’ll be a rough couple of days with the urges, but you can do it. And I hear you, I think all of us can relate to the rationalization and justification that goes on in the mind that convinces us to peek. It’s so sneaky! And yep, I agree that it’s never really worth it. But it always feels worth it when I get through a tough day without looking at P or get through a tough urge without peeking or looking at P. And that’s all it is, getting through one urge at a time, one day at a time. Good luck!
Thanks buddy I appreciate the support. I'm doing ok, mostly just annoyed right now that I had to reset over something that was just so dumb and unfulfilling. But of course I already know it's like that, I just had to prove it to myself again for some stupid reason. Anyway time to get right back up and start over. As you say, one urge at a time, one day at a time - let's do it!
A terrible weekend in terms of my nofap journey. My ex-gf contacted me on Saturday and it sent me down a spiral of hurtful emotions. Why did she contact me again? I mean she is the one who broke up with me. Anyway, I don't know how to deal with this. I thought I had gotten a handle on this but clearly, the matters of the heart are complicated. I need to stay clear of PMO today as a coping mechanism.
[QUOTE = "2525 ، المنشور: 1208527 ، العضو: 155800"] مرحبًا بك في تحدي 365 يومًا! ما هو التحدي 365؟ - ويتمثل التحدي في السهل و اضح . يجب أن تصل إلى 365 يومًا من عدم وجود PMO . - يجب أن تبدأ في اليوم 0 ويجب أن تنشر كل يوم في هذا الموضوع ويفضل أن تصل إلى سنة واحدة. عندما تصل إلى سنة واحدة ، فإنك تترك هذا الموضوع إلى الأبد. هذا كل شئ. ملاحظة: بعد النجاح الكبير لهذا التحدي وقتي المحدود في المنتدى ، تم تعطيل قاعة المشاهير لفترة غير محددة. [/اقتبس] How do I enter this challenge